Dark and Light : Our World is Different
She better being evil than human. She is no longer part of our family. Kill her. Now.
Why i am still alive? So sleepy. I need to sleep more today. There is no way to go out. No more journey. What i can do?. I can’t read my next step inside my brain.
When you lose in a game or failed in your effort, you are the real coward. You lose all the bet you have. All of precious things in your life. Gone.
I am done. Hard to breath nowadays.
It’s like in a cage. In empty house. I warned by overthinking every morning.
Don’t read so many books. Don’t suck the smoke in hurry.
Money is better than effort. Inside your effort, MONEY WILL WORK.
Being jobless is like in hell. Stuck at home, tired being alone, cleaning home alone. I said : i need help. And i was asking many times since 8 years ago day by days with same question : “would you help me, dad?”. Until this second, there is no answers. There is no support for your choice about job, there is no way to go there, means will end in death.
No more deal with any agreement. Now, action and preparation is A MUST.
Did i ever think about “early death”? Yes, i am. Suicide such as “LAST STRUGGLE”.
When you are one and only daughter who “poor and jobless”, YOU ARE NOT PRECIOUS.
Mom ever said “Freelance is not a job”. She gave born on you to be presence in this world, she also hurt your pure heart by her words.
Two womens in one destiny story.
A day in hommie place. Two womens are roled as daughter and as mom are talking in peaceful morning. “Mom, if just both of us at home, i’ll put you in your home in village and i’ll start my journey alone. That’s my plan”.
A young women in her mid thirty with her short pant and longsleeve t-shirt. Back and forth tidying up inside home. While her mother slept on her back.
I was given guidance by God to take care of my mother when she was sick this time.
This is trust. The trust come out from her mouth since 7 years ago.
At that time, my mother immediately said “if mom sick, will you take care of mom?”. Our eyes met between my glasses. Since at that moment, beginning of one destiny is started.
Our plan both are gone becoming new dream. I mean, my dream.
She was in another world. She has been in peaceful place and happily with her parent out there. Where does she? in heaven.
Now, i was totally alone.
One year after her death, as a living witness, I am tired of looking at the future.
She is not only mother for me. Mother who i respect and obey. Mother who being argue with, mother who instantly being my friend, mother who i take care of.
I walk alone. I drive alone. I stepping out alone. I planned everything alone. If there is something bad happened to me, i just take care of myself alone.
In another families where happiest and perfect family they called. My friend took my phone and see the wallpaper, then he said : why you put on this as your wallpaper? it will make you depression. It will bother you to reminisce about it. Replace it. He saw my phone wallpaper. It’s a photo of me with my lovely mom.
A little baby will be born in big house.
Get ready with huge preparation contains delicious food and luxury gifts.
That’s all based on our level and high dignity.
She’s gonna be someone you can’t expect, but in this home, as ambition grows and develops, the best daughter will be born in this family.
This story had been not finish until you read last word as bait.
Nice to meet you again, Miss SENA.