I’ve come to realise, that I was just a dog,
A puppy they pitied!
They did not want any association with, unless it was beneficial! For them!
The realisation is very painful, I thought I made peace with it, I really thought I did!
And maybe I did, maybe I did! And just maybe this is the final hours of me with them
Specifically, them, given that the others are already cut loose! Like, invisible chains of a foot loose!
They say I am brutal, because I do not think twice before I cut off, but did you think twice before you toyed me, did you?
20 years of friendship and 1 year exposed it all! I say Thank you and let you go!
10 years of being my lover and 1 year exposed it all !I say Thank you and let you go!
3 decades of being my mother, a year exposed it all! Saddened that we still have a lifetime to go!
I will let them and I will let me! I made myself a promise and I intend to keep it, you must understand that for every betrayal I suffered I will make me a million dollar, let them, so that I can let me! Betrayal is the best thing that ever happened to me.
These foes disguised as family and friends were in any event holding me back! I will be rewarding me a million dollar for each of your betrayals, don’t dare ask me for a dime!
Then I think of her, does she have it in her to betray me? I wonder, she is after all a Marilyn, a Cleopatra. I love her! My Angelus, why? Why do you have your hooks in my soul? Some questions will never get answers.
Or am I underestimating you, my angel, what if you are the Ruth to my Boaz as opposed to the Josephine to my Napoleon, what if I am overthinking it, what if Allah willed it?
Still I want you, I do. What can I do?
Hell, I might be the most contradicting species to ever exist, I do not trust anyone, how do I dream of a life with you? How? Trust is the foundation of a marriage, how can I have a life with you, if I do not trust anyone. How?
May my creator grant me wisdom, for only he knows!
