October 17, I was scrolling reels and found a dating app FLIRTU. Didn't liked anyone, I felt little bored and went down to filled up my water bottle, after I came back, I found a match in the telegram from the app FLIRTU, a 24-yr man, 5.9 ft tall, handsome. I looked out his profile by seeing it I wrote him "hi" by seeing it he instantly replied to my text and texted me to text in his account. I wrote him "HI" - we spoke for an hour, and he asked me if he can call me, I replied "ah.... not now but maybe a bit later " he sends, me a smile emoji, I left for having my lunch, that day something had have wired that change my life. At evening we exchanged our number and spoke for 4 hrs. That was the wired that thing changed my life. I never spoke to boys for 4-5 hours, he was the first boy, I mean a man who changed my life, who change my thinking... There is a code " first all taste sweet and then all tastes bitter same happened with me.
A week past he kept texting me as if he was my man, every morning a " good morning " text and at night a "good night" text and that's how two weeks pasted. He shared his feeling and his past life. I had never been in relationship, my friends used to say just make friend but don't fall in love 'coz it will hurt me the most. I, a soft-hearted girl, never been in in relationships, my moto is that everyone deserve love and on it I planned to try to love never knew i will really fall in love so deep. He had a very bad heart broke; he was just 18 when he first fell in love but whom he loved she never lover, he begged to love him, but the girl treated him badly, " once you're broken no one can quire it "but I was the fool who thought maybe I can but i failed. The way he used to talk and care I thought maybe he loved me but I never thought of it that all thing going to change. We meet up. we had lots of romance and lots that a lover does, I fall in love with him not because he treated me better but for respecting a girl. He never committed me but used to call me " baby", I was just 18 to understand what he wants actually. He always troughed arrow to me as if he loved me, day passed and I wait maybe he will commit me one day but he dn't so I planned a dinner plan and asked if he was free in this Sunday to come and join me in dinner he said yes, I made myself dressed well and tied my hair nice with all preparation that today I will say what I fell for him. I was waiting for him to come and join me, we had our dinner together and had lots of talk, he asked me for walk with him, I was ready with all to say what I feel for him with little nervousness and little excitement in my heart. As we were walk i said hi " Sam I wanna tell you something " he replied by hugging am always here to listen you just say that's in your heart and in your brain, I got little confidence that he might feel good if I tell him that I love him. I stood Infront of him took long breadth and I proceed to say " Sam i don't know why you give the best smile by staying beside me, I feel you mine " he smiled, and kissed me and hugged me as i said " Sam I love you" he pushed me back and said " listen keep it simple don't give it a name, you know how badly I faced pain I can't love nor I can hurt you are a pure girl that I will never find in this world nor in my life, you are the best but..... i can't love you". he holed my face and said, " we are just friend ", i cried and told him to love me once and if he fails, he will leave me, he pushed me and said you will never know how much it's hurt, and I don't wanna see you in the same place where I had been for 4 years so it's better for you to move backward now, I hugged him from back and asked from him for chance to love me and to stay , he said , " nothing more but we are just friend".