Chapter 1: Family Love
This is the story of the girl. She was full of life, energetic, and wants to explore everything. She was even loved by all, her family, her friends. She has a best friend (her father). She loved her father more than anybody. She can share everything with her father. Her dreams are so bright as her father’s smile. She wants to do anything that makes her father happy and proud full. Her siblings often taunt her that why you are acting like a queen.
She once wrote in her diary.
"Yes, I am a queen.
I have no crown to make me beautiful
I have no crowd to make me smile
I have no castle to attract the world
I am not so beautiful to get attention
I am not intelligent to touch the sky
But I have a person which makes me smile
I have an angle that makes me fly
I have an angle that fulfills all my wishes
I have a person who considers me a beautiful Yes; I am beautiful in my father’s eyes
I am happy to be his sight
Yes, I am the queen in my father’s castle
My father is my crowd to attract, to make me smile
I am the queen with no accessories
I am happy without the crown
I have my father which is my crown"
But one day, she came to know that her father is not a real father, her family is not a real family. She belongs to another family. But alas, her real father died when she was only two years old and her real mother could not take her responsibility. Then she starts feeling that she is a loser because she doesn’t know the reality before. Then that day, her father came to her and said:
“Why are u sitting lonely and you are so big now that you are deciding on your own .why? You are my daughter. You are my little princess. When I die then you will become alone. I am alive now, your guardian. So hurry up, get up, go outside and talk to your siblings”. She quietly listened to all things and smile because she feels so secured at this time. She studied and tried her best to fulfill her dreams. She went to university and makes a lot of friends. She started to get along with her friends and spending less time with her father. She was impressed by her friends and forgets about to real things that her father teaches her. Then one day, she heard from her sister that their father is about to die because of illness. She came back to her real life, her father and she keeps praying to GOD.
"Oh God, please save my father, don’t even get him, he is my guardian, how I 'ii survive without him." Her father was happy to spend time with her. Then, one night, her mother awakes her that her father is not even taking a breath. She rashly ran into his room. She holds the wrist of her father but can’t feel anything. She hugs him and said:
"Wake up, father, and hurry up. I am waiting, why you are not listening to me. Please get up. I will be alone without you. You have told me that I am your princess. You will not let me alone in the dark world. Your princess will be alone and dumb without you. Please don’t let me alone." But he was not there to listen to her. Then she realized that she is now alone in real not at that time when she came to know about her real parents. At that time, she was angry and sad that why she has not her real parents like her friends.
She thinks that due to these thoughts, God punishes her by taking the real Angel that kept her protected from all the bad situations. This was the greater first real disaster in her life. Because she doesn’t know that what the biggest disaster was waiting for her because her guarding angel was gone that make her more dependent on himself that she even can’t face the bad situations and the fake people in life. (Continue)
Chapter 2: Rejection or a Lesson
She was a girl with always smiling face, but she is now a serious girl and lonely without her father. After her father's death, she decided to quit her studies because she was feeling insecure without her father. But she doesn’t bother it and reveals it to anybody. She always smiles silently.
"Every time, it happens that, you keep silent with the smile
There might be some grief in your smile
That you bear silently with the smile
Everyone listens to the talkative person
But no one is listening to your silence
What is the long conversation between your heart and mind?
What is the reason behind your silent smile?
What is the explosion behind your smile?
Why you keep singing to end up your grief silently
Everyone doesn’t know your silent conservation is full of secrets
Keep your secrets and silence a tongue
Be brave and try to explode your silent
Let everyone know about your silent conversation
Why your keys to a silent conversation are lost
Find these keys, and expose the reason for your silence."
But, one day her elder brother came to her and said:
"Why you always sit lonely and don’t talk to anyone. Be brave. Face the reality that father is no more. Now I am your guardian and your father ".
She quietly listened to her brother and smile aimlessly because she was not so attached to her brothers. Due to her brother, she tries to pay attention to her studies. She became a silent person, but she always talks to her father silently in her heart.
She started to write a diary to convey her thoughts to her father. While all siblings were chatting with themselves she was talking to her father and requesting that:
“Daddy, please come back. I don’t like to talk to anyone. I am being far away from my siblings, please I want to share everything with you, come back".
But no one was there to reply.
She started to keep her distance from her family because she thinks that no one is here like her father. She quietly begins to do her small works but she was reluctant to face the crowd and the hard tasks because her father doesn’t let her do anything. He has done everything by himself.
Her brothers tried their best to fulfill their father's responsibility. She felt guilty that her brothers are sincere with her, but she can’t even make them proud by her academic record because she can’t pay attention to her studies after her father's death.
But then, she met the disaster, the big disaster in her life. She started to find her father in another person and that was her biggest mistake.
Once she was sitting, she receives a notification on her mobile that she has been added to a group which she doesn’t know. She blocked this group but then she was called by one person who was good in study and he pretends to be a gentleman. She started to believe in one person. But her vision was only that he is just a mentor for her because she has someone to whom she can talk about her father. But one day, she realized that her mentor was not the right man.
Alas, she now understands that believing in others is not good and why she was so much pampered that she can’t realize the bad and good for her without her father. She thought to correct her mistake and tried to close to her family. But ………………….
He began to harass her mentally. He said to her. "Oh, you little girl, why you are now avoiding me, I'll destroy you and all the people you love because I don’t like those people who avoid me. You think that your family will accept you. I’ll pretend that you are a bad girl."
She was so insecure and scared at that time that she can’t share it with her family .she shared it with a friend and said: "I can’t tell my brothers because I don’t want to lose my family now because I have lost my father.
But her friend told all her brother, and then she faced the biggest disaster. At that time, she was thinking, "Please God, now I have no one but only brothers, please doesn’t let me down in their eyes".
But she realized that all her prayers went all in vain. She lost her family's affection. She once wrote in her diary that “father, why you love me so much that I always believe in somebody easily, why my brothers continue to take my responsibility?"
She then attempted suicide because she feels that life is nothing and she won't want to bear the reality and the angry faces of her brother and sisters. But even God doesn’t accept her, this was her thinking.
One night, she had a dream of her father, her father smiles at him and said: "My princess, you made a mistake, but you should trust your brothers. They are angry because you don’t trust them; move on with your life. Why you don’t remember that I have taught you. no one will secure you until you don’t stand for yourself".
She woke up with tears in her eyes. She then decided to talk to her brother. She went to her brother's room and said, "Brother, I am not your real sister, that’s why I was insecure. Please be my father. Please accept me as your sister and forgive me."
Her brother listened to her with an angry face and walked away.
This was her first feeling of rejection.
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Chapter 3: Pain, HOPE AND WORSHIP TO GOD
After the rejection from her brother, she feels so rejected.
She knows about now what is the real pain?
"Real pain is when you feel hopeless.
The real pain is when she is considering as no one.
The real pain is when she is unconsciously smiling and her sister taunts her that why you have the right of smiling.
The real pain is when your loved one, your brother who was dearest to her
But her brother when sees her, ignore her"
She decided to come through all the mess. She became hopeless. She once suicide. But all in vain. She once wrote in her diary
"Oh God, why, why you don’t even accept me. Why you also rejected me. My greatest fear was to go far away from my brothers. My mother feels that man's existence is important. But you take away my real father at two years old. But my father who was not real was my real hero of mine. But you take away him too. Then I made a mistake and my brother also rejected me. And now I came to you. You also rejected me."
But it is said that when your bad time starts then death even didn't accept you. This was the same situation with her.
She was a great dreamer. She wants to explore more in life but her life ended.
But this was her thoughts. She started to feel that she is a loser.
But, one day she was praying to God. She feels that her tears are coming out of her eyes. She didn't even cry in front of her family. But she cried in front of God. She remembers that once her father told her about hope, faith, and trust.
"The most deserving personally who trust you, who hides your all mistakes and even forgive you is God. If you go toward the dark path, only bad thoughts will destroy you, and when you believe that bad time is just for the little time. God will change the entire situation. Only cry in front of God. Not try to cry in front of others"
She remembers all this, and then she decided to be happy. Once she talked to the mentor. She asked her to talk to God then you feel comfortable
She started to talk to God and feel happy inside
She decided to continue her life and try to be herself.
"Hey girl, why are u afraid of voices?
Why u think that you have no choices
Why you are in darkness
Why u let people stay u in darkness
Let the people know who you are
Let the people think about what you are
Oh girl wake up and be you
Be yourself as a shining star
Be yourself that no one knows who u are
You are the bird that can touch the clouds
You are the strength that can shut the mouths
You are the color that paints the whole world
You are the sound that changes the mind
Be yourself and tell the whole world that you are you,
Not the one that peoples make u
Be the strength that the world chases u
Be yourself and never afraid of others
You are the power that can bring changes further
You are the mirror that can reflect others
"The power to be yourself".
She aims to continue her life. But she realizes some mistakes and tried not to trust others again. Then she encounters again a great challenge.
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Chapter 4: WILL-POWER to fight
After few months, she encounters to face some challenges in her career. Her brother doesn’t talk to him nicely. She was a little much afraid of the man and the crowd.
When she started her career, her biggest fear was to work with a man. But thank God, she didn't show her weakness to anybody.
She started to work nicely, and then her boss calls her and said
"Oh, haya, you did a great job. You are promoted. You have to work with Mr.Ahsan."
She said and become so upset because this person was very free to the women.
She suddenly decided to quit her job .because this was her greatest fear and due to talking to the unknown, she has been punished by her family, brothers till now.
Once she gets into the home.
Her mother told her about her fixing her marriage with an unknown person.
She became so frightened. Because she thought to not consider any man now in her life. But she remembers that her brothers no doubt take care of her despite how much they were angry with her.
She prayed to God and said:
"Please God, you know all my fears, please give me the courage to handle all this courage"
But, you know what the twist was.
Yes the groom name was Mr.Ahsan
She was sitting astonishingly, that she left the job due to him and she has to bother him till life.
She decided to tell him all about her mistakes, as she decided to not depend on the man now anymore.
She regains her job and again starts working in an office.
Mr.Ahsan was just silent all the time. He accepted all her fears and thoughts with respect.
After few months:
Her brother, who rejected her, came to her house. She was working in the kitchen.
She became so happy that her brother talked to her nicely as she talks to her when she was a child.
Her brother said: "You know, today my daughter did a small mistake, yes but that time I considered your mistake as a big mistake even though you were been harassed by the mad person but I remained angry with you. But today I realized that you were not wrong but the situation was wrong at that time. I love you a lot.
Your husband realized my mistake and acknowledged me with the truth and your feelings. I am guilty now".
She was stunned by hearing that her husband felt the real pain of her even he didn't realize that he feels her pain.
She said to her brother:
"Oh, brother everything is clear now, why u r guilty. I am happy that you again accepted me".
One day, her husband was waiting for her to take her to the office. He feels that now she is in peace. He asked her:
"Oh, I think, the sunrise today from the west. Today you are smiling".
She gazed at him with an angry face but in reality, she was not angry.
She says thanks to Mr.Ahsan that "thanks a lot, you respect me and bring my brother back to my life."
He told him to feel free to talk to him.
"Oh haya, time heels the wounds .please be brave. I am with you. "
Now she understands the talks of her father that believe in God. Allah will do better for you"
One night, she dreams of her father,
Her father kisses her on her head and said:
"You are my beloved daughter, please be happy. You have faced many challenges and you will face a lot of challenges. Only believe that your God will always do better but you human beings don’t understand that what is better for you and what is not better for you."
She smiles at her father. She was ready to face any challenges in her life.