"life is not perfect"
"life has never been perfect for anyone"
There are over 7 billion people on the earth, each one of them struggling in their own ways, trying to achieve their ideal life, some of them get distracted by whats going on in others lives specifically by those who are living better, first, they notice, then they compare, then they get depressed, then they start cursing their imperfect lives.
Only had they known that fact, they would have been a happier person.
The beginning of my high school: I entered as a happy, diligent, and confident student, with spirits so high. I was so determined to achieve my dreams of being the star student in school, the best, and I was ready for it.
yeat1
That's when I met her, the student who had offended me and my confidence in myself. She was smart, bright, likeable. She was a newcomer but seemed to have made everyone like her in such a short time, she was rich and pretty yet humble. There was not one bad thing about her, she had a great sense of humour, she made everyone laugh, the teachers started noticing her. I didn't know what I didn't like about her, maybe because she was better than me in everything, that is definitely not something you can curse someone for but I did hate her for outshining me. She always scored the best, her grades were the highest, I was so busy being jealous of her 100 that I never noticed my own 99.
year2
I spent more time thinking about how unfair life is rather than correcting myself whenever I made a mistake, she never got anything wrong, she became the teacher's 'favourite' in a short time. She was good at making friends, she was good in studies and at being social at the same time, everything she did, every word coming out of her mouth was impeccable, almost as if she was a superhuman, error-free. Sometimes I thought she had this invisible force with her giving her all the luck she needed.
"life is a race, you needed to focus on the finish line rather than focusing on the people ahead of you"
year3
I was suffering through a major depression, we were halfway through high school and I was nowhere close to being the " star student", the teachers never noticed me, I was awkward in public and had a few friends, but none of this was more hurtful for me than watching her getting everything I've ever wanted. I was obsessed with her! my grade continued to get lower, I studied because I wanted to get higher grades than her, I dressed good because I wanted to look better than her, I talked to people because I wanted to have more friends than her, I worked really hard but I never got any better because every effort in my life was to beat someone, not to become a better person, I wasted my time adding up the number of boys crazy for her, the teachers complimenting her, the friends she had and then complaining about how unfair and biased God is. I wasn't rich, pretty, or very likeable so wasn't I supposed to at least get the dreams I've worked hard for.
"Your only competition should be yourself"
The final year
I decided that I was done, I can't, I don't want all of that anymore because there comes a point when you don't even want to succeed anymore, you just want to get out! I thought that the storm in my head has finally calmed down, "So what? she can have all the boys to herself , she can go to the best university in-country and can live happily ever after, she can go to blazes for I care now!"It was finally our prom day and I made an appearance just to make some final good memories after a cursed experience while being at high school. I decided not to look at her," she must have looked like a goddess".I have been hating her forevermore and I will continue to hate her forever for her perfect life yet to come because deep down I was still desperate for the life she was living...that was the day I finally realized
"Life is not perfect"
"Life has never been perfect for anyone!"
when she died on her way back from school that day in a car accident.No college, no more boys, no more compliments, just a goddess...with a broken body ...and blood all over her.
"had they known that fact, they would have been a happier person!"
