Strong girl
I don't know why my mom killed the boy i loved. She doesn't know she killed me by killing him.
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Pov: nancy
I was running so fast . Few creatures were chasing me. Oh thanks it was dream i woke up having a bad dream damn. I was scared it was a lucid dream.
Honey Wake up we are leaving home " said my mom .
We are going to attend a party at my friends house.
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I brushed my teeth and washed my face. I'm always good at what should I wear. I chose pink dress that I'm going to wear for the first time. I will make me look beautiful.
Watching in mirror on my God I'm looking so beautiful I can't even move my eyes away from me
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I'm gonna kill everyone with my beauty.
Watching girls with their parents always makes me sad. I don't have father not even my biological mother. Life was so tough for me. When i started to observe things around me i saw armed people. I spent my 15 years in that life i though just we exist in world.
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They made me know everything they used my intelligence. When i turned 18 i was trained enough to live with people.
Hiii where are you lost" a stranger voice got me out of my world to reality.
Nothing i was just watching everything" i said.
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It was a handsome beautiful enough a boy maybe he is same age as mine. Veins on his arms and he was handsome. Pink soft lips , well dressed, deep voice yeah he is amazing. He made me fall for him at first sight.
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I don't know what love actually is but i can feel it in my irregular heartbeat. It's something really beautiful.i was just looking at him when he moved towards bar i realized i must have scared him. Uffff
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I left the place. I wasn't feeling relaxed. I started to search for him. Nothing is hard for me it is what i do and i know. I took picture of him and left the place behind me. I followed a strange road but i wasn't scared at all.
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My past is hell. I don't know why my parents left me alone at a weird place when i didn't know anything. Whenever I think about it i forget everything around me.
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I heard voice of walking behind me. I started to panic. I stopped and looked back it was him.
"I saw you leaving party i was scared as you were walking on your feet somewhere no one would like to go " he said.
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I told him that i know where I'm going. He brought me back. And said me to do rest in rest room and that he's gonna take care of me.
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POV: Adam
She is from heaven when i looked at her i felt butterflies in my stomach.she looks more beautiful when she finds herself lost somewhere. I felt like she liked me too. I didn't want to make her feel that I'm happy. I got hope.
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I moved towards bar to celebrate my happiness. While drinking i saw her leaving party and moving towards the place no one would ever want to go. I chased her using my full energy. She looked lost in her own world. Maybe she also doesn't know where is going.
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When i reached her she stopped and looked back when she looked back she was relieved. I got hope.
"I saw you leaving party i was scared as you were walking on your feet somewhere no one would like to go " i said to her.
I know where I'm going" she said.
I didn't like her reply. I brought her back to restroom.I think she needs to do rest.
And i said i will take care of her . She kept quiet.
POV:nancy
laying on bed watching him making something for me to eat is new to me and I'm happy someone is taking care of me. I maybe say him that i love him but I'm scared if I'm wrong in knowing what love is . How it feels. I will keep it secret until he says himself.
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Today is the 4th month of knowing him he confessed his love. I'm happy we are going on picnic to spend time with each other. I packed my necessary stuff and waited for him to pick me.
Exact after 5 min a car showed up. I looked at his eyes.
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POV: Adam
Today I'm gonna confess my feelings for her. I can't live without her. When she is around me I'm happy nothing affects me. I think she loves me too when she looks at me she says with her eye make me yours. Baby I'm yours.
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I found her in her home damn it's so big. She is richest girl. She does what she wants. A guard came out and said mam is waiting for you. I took her with me on beach where i confessed my love. I thought it's gonna make things worse what if I'm wrong in understanding her. But she kept quiet for few seconds which gave me more panic attacks. After few seconds she smiled and said i love you too. And hugged me tightly.
POV: Nancy
He called me at 7am Saying that we are going somewhere i was ready. I wanted to look beautiful for him. When i was ready to leave he was before my eyes. He was looking handsome as hell. I couldn't move my eyes away from him.
Are you ready? Adam said
Yes" i said
We left for Beach.
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I was feeling happy around him.
When he moved closer I stopped breathing.
I love you " Adam said
I was confused. I thought of my life which was so messed up. I knew i would not be able to save his life. I was scared.
But keeping every thing aside i accepted his confession.
I love you too" i said
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I hugged him tightly.
Today was the best day of my life.
The environment around us was romantic as hell.
Sweet cold breeze and sunset and love it was so satisfying.
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Today is the second day of my life i can say i got life. Before this i was dead. I got him i got love. I women who is international singer said herself as my mother. She was so sweet and she took good care of me. I forgot my pains when she said I'm your mother from now .
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I told her everything she wasn't happy at all. Which made me sad but it's okay i will change it.for me for us.
Adam called me at his house. He lives alone. He lost his parents 2 years ago. He is strong man. He looks always happy.
I bought gift for him. A beautiful chain which was gem . So expensive. I got when i was 8. I kept that chain under my skin . Today I'm going to give him that chain. That chain is so special for me. When no one was with me this chain was the only thing i trusted.
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I reached his house saying my guards to wait out side.
I knocked at the door after 1 min he opened door and said me to close eyes. I did whatever he said me to do.
Tantraaaann open your eyes" he said
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POV: Adam
I called her and made surprise for her and called her at my house. And started to make surprise for her and her dinner for her. I don't know her favorite food or anything. After completing preparation i started to wait for her. After 5 mins I heard knock on my door. I knew it was her. I immediately opened the door. I said her to close her eyes. She did whatever i said her to do without thinking.
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It was making me feel happy that she trusts me with absolute trust. This is what i craved for.
I brought her to the dinner table.
Tantraaaann open your eyes " i said
She opened her eyes slowly. She was surprised and happy that she kissed me on Chicks. It left me lost. Her soft lips felt so satisfying.
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I forgot everything. She was looking so beautiful in ocean blue dress. We sat and started to talk. She told me that there's a lot behind this color for her it isn't just a color.
I saw her eyes getting wet . I couldn't control myself. I kissed her to make her forget everything.
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She kissed me back. It turned aggressive from slow. Her looks like lips are from heaven
While kissing her i help her to remove her cloths. Then i removed mine. We didn't do dinner. I brought her to my bedroom.
She is hot as hell. She was kissing me and i was watching her getting lost in me.
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POV: Nancy
When i opened my eyes. I opened it slowly cause i wanted to feel good and when i opened my eyes. Watching decoration and candles i lost my mind that i kissed him on his chicks.
We sat and started to talk. I told him that ocean blue color means a lot for me.
While telling him i got tears in my eyes.
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He noticed and kissed me and loved the taste of his lips. I kissed him back it turned aggressive from slow.
I wanted to remove my clothes he helped me . After removing mine while kissing he removed his too. He stopped and started to enjoy my touch. I kept kissing him.
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POV: Adam
I woke up earlier and i wanted to make something for her. I made breakfast for us. I woke her up. And kissed her forehead. She she got dressed up and she liked breakfast.
I asked about color she likes. She said i will tell you someday not now.
I said okay. I agreed but it made me curious.
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I dropped her home. I got a phone call from unknown number. An unknown voice said me to arrive at a strange place i didn't know existed. I said okay and took turn and started to follow the map. Half of the way wasn't even on map. A man came and I don't know what happened after.
POV: nancy
I woke up hearing Adam's voice he kissed me on forehead. I got dressed up and loved the food he made for me. He dropped me at home. When i entered home I heard voice of my mother who is not my biological mother but i respect her as my mother.
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You got him" she said to a strange person.
Yes" he said .
Just do what i said " said my mom.
Okay" he said.
And pulled his mobile out of pocket and moved out of house.
I didn't get it . But i knew something is wrong.
At the exact time i received a call from my one of guard
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Adam is in danger" said guard.
I felt pain through my veins i followed the location he sent me.
After an hour of ride i reached my destination. I panicked when i saw him tied. And a person with mask pointing gun at him.
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I couldn't believe i lost my love , my life. I knew my mom did it.
So it was what she was talking about.
I screamed and screamed. I couldn't save my love.
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I got at the event my mom was I entered barefeet and brought a bottle of vine in my left hand and gun in right hand. I lost my energy when i looked at her and said why you killed him. You didn't kill him you killed me.
I hit the bottle on floor and walked on it towards her having gun in second hand.
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I pointed gun on her head and said you killed me not him .
I don't know what happened after.
I woke up and i was so depressed i left home . I spent 2 months in jungle just crying. I didn't feel world around me. I was no more me.
I got him i got hope which i lost so easily. I waited 20 years for a hope i got and lost .
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After 2 months my life changed i don't feel anything, no happiness, got sleep paralysis,
I'm not normal anymore.
I started to change myself. I don't want to experience sleep paralysis again. I started to correct myself. For love i tried fandom. It changed alot of me but my symptoms are getting worst.
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I opened YouTube and searched Glow up. It changed my life a lot but still i needed something more effective. As I don't have motivation for anything at all. I want to regulate my dysregulated nervous system...
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After that I'm on journey of me , myself and I
