As we walk through our previous story, We got to know that how suck was my SY of college. As I came to TY I became a gossip of the college and Entertainment for everyone. I was in deep love with her and I was trying to reach her at all cost. I messaged her a lot of time, even emailed her on morning 3 am. I was a fool and yes my previous actions made everyone to just get entertained. Later on, I called her and finally she agreed to meet me. On that day, guess what happened she didn't came. There was a friend of her who showed me a picture of her with her bf kissing each other. As I said I was a fool after all. I admit I stocked her over 2-3 months on Instagram and found what she likes, dislikes a bit a way. The fun part was everyone around me knows this thing and still all are silent. My Parents, My Cousins, My Teachers and every person. And I was very glad to say that I was happy by watching all this. I am estimating and all it was a fact.
Later on, when everything got settled even though I haven't got much answers. I got to know that initially I told everyone I belong to a poor family to just fit in a puzzle. By somewhat I got to know that at start points she rejected me because of that point. I know to maintain relation someone we need to hold some sort of money. So, at last I revealed that yes I belong to rich upper middle class family. As I staked her, there was comment on every post of her bf and many things like tagging each other and all. After 3-4 months everything was vanished and this was during the time of ending SY. May be both had breakup but as I lacked in looks because of some amount of fats which given me man boobs. Even though I am a finest man by character and nature. I am not praising myself swear I was always good to people around me even I got betrayed I yielded them as friends by forgiving them. Of course I don't trust them anymore but by holding a sense of revenge wasn't seem good to me, also I fear Karma even though on first note I will make no such mistake.
I realized that how society blinded us. GOD also known as Gold, Oil and Deposits became an ultimate goal to achieve. As I described that earlier in my story "Its a seed planted in everybody's mind". I seen people killing there inside kids. I seen kids killing themselves just to fit in a puzzle. There was a time when people used to love but now a days people fear it because of Societal Heritage so called status and money. After all this I was so broke. I lost my mother(she is not dead), my mental peace, my life everything. I wish that this nightmare ends soon. Every girl looks for successful man. And only woman builds a successful man. I can't expect that to ever happen in my life because I don't even seen a woman around me ever. Now as I lost the feeling to ever love someone, I lost the lust to achieve any thing in this world. That day I don't even wanted to get up and do something. I cried all alone to hide my tears but remain unhidden. I had only one wish that Karma will provide me justice after all this mess.
Fixing something will never help anyone good you will just mess it even more. To achieve my lust back I used to consuming porn content and now I am an addict. I can't able to join the GYM because of family drama. It hurts every time because I gone to deep in love and now I want to recover from it. As Greeks used to keep a man who can spell in there ears "You are a man". By same way I used to keep a thought in mind "I never seen her in my life and I don't even know her". May be this help me a bit. I know people will prefer money over love but where ever is love there is money, a true wealth.