It's me

"It’s Me"

It's hard to achieve something you didn't like initially. It is like eating something you dislike. Yes, my life would be like anyone, but the hardships that I have surpassed is something you will learn from.

I'm Charles, I attended a Christian School for 5 years. My 1st and 2nd years were cruel or  torturous. Formula over here, formula over there. English from the top and Filipino from the bottom; Biology to the left and Chemistry to the right. I don't brainstorm because my brain is already in a calamity.

In terms of teaching they are so advanced that my brain can't keep up. We had

10 subjects back then and I kept failing in 7 of them especially in Mathematics and Chemistry. I don't understand what the teachers are talking about, like "find the x and y" or "A + 16". Seriously? Sometimes I think,"If the inventor of mathematics would be alive, I would assassinate the human" and then laughed.

My father has very high hopes for me to pass my subjects, but I just failed him. He wants me to become an engineer someday, but my heart wants me to become a successful chef. But my conscience is killing me, I don’t want my father to be disappointed because he supported me every time i was low, so I chose this path. I continued, but I keep on failing. Slowly I lost interest and it became a burden. I just slept during classes, I even tried to escape from school and acted sick, just to be absent. I tried to read and listen to some motivational quotes, but it didn't work. My father was very disappointed when he saw my grades. And I was very depressed.

I gathered a lot of confidence and prayed just to face my father. Frightened, worried, and trembling, that’s how I felt and so, we talked, I explained everything, and

I told him that engineering was not for me, and I wanted to try something else, and

I wanted to be a chef. I could promise to never let him down and uplift the glory of the family. My father respected my decision and he told me that he will wait for the day when i fulfilled this promise.

So now, no failed subject and no hard feelings anymore. This is the beginning of my dream.

Try to ask your heart, what you really want to be because sadness inside you will prevail if you will not follow your heart’s desires.

-CHARLES ROME