When we were younger we thought that life was perfect and it was always rainbows and life was fun because we could play all day, and having friends, that was not a problem, you were fine if you did not have friends. When you thought that mom and dad could not hurt you at all when mom or dad were your heroes and they were just always with you. When it wasn’t weird to call our dad “daddy” or when mom and dad argued and they did not blame it on you, When being with mom and dad was the only safe place, I miss those days, Now I realize that mom and dad can hurt you, that mom and dad will not always be with you and that one day they would leave you. I realize that life is not the way I imagined it to be, life is not always on our side and that in life we lose things, but we also gain amazing things. Yes, sometimes we have to deal with the fact that life does not always go our way, It will never go the way we want it to be. We often lose people we love or even friends, but in life, people change, we lose things, but life keeps on, Sometimes when we lose something in life, we often want to get out of the dark place but we also want to stay there, why? Because of the memories, we had with that person or thing, but we can move on and keep the memories with us. I realized that life has a purpose for us, but sometimes it’s hard to see it, when we were younger our only problem was going to sleep or not getting the things we wanted. We would only cry if we fell, and the dark was our enemy. Now we have so much more problems and often the dark is our safe place, now we cry not because of pain but because we relieve our anger, our stress. Mom and dad are not the safe places we once thought it was, when we were younger we always asked “why” now I realized that there is not an answer to everything, that in life we have our ups and downs, and sometimes we fail to get back up, sometimes it’s just hard to get back up to the right path. I often wonder, why life treats us in such a way we often can’t deal with, then I realize that life is mad at us, because she can’t be us. When we were younger we thought that life was the best because you didn’t care how you looked like, now it has turned into something important, the way I see life may not be the way others see it, but I think some people might be able to relate to it. When I was younger I thought that life was going to be the way I wanted it to be, but the truth is that no, it is not the way I expected it to be, I have my ups and downs, and yes I’m scared for what is going to happen in the future, When we were younger we would feel lost if mom and dad were not with us, now I feel lost in this world, and I have so many people with me, but still…. I’m lost, not knowing what to do. As a child, feeling lonely meant being home alone or mom and dad not with us, now we have friends, family, people that care but….. We still feel lonely, I just don’t get it at all. Getting older was something we wished as kids, now we wish we could still be younger, I have no clue what the future has for me, but one thing I do know is that whatever it has for me... I’m going to be ok. Life is challenging, yes, but whatever challenges it brings us, we might fail, we might lose, but that does not mean the battle is over.
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~ Nataly Diaz