Have you ever been in a situation where you obviously hit rock bottom? Did you ever feel hopeless and just wanted to lay on your bed the whole time? You feel tired just by doing nothing. You're tired of overthinking.
Not all people has the privilege for fortune or success. Most of us were still struggling or wondering what life's ahead of us. Though we understand each others differences and life's experiences, a thought of life's unfairness is still instilling on our heads.
Maurie clearly remembers all the events on her life that made her what she is today. She is the youngest in the family and currently working in bank. Most people's misconception when they know someone who's in the banking industry is that they are one of the highest paying job. Little did they know that it's one of the most crucial job ever existed.
She's been in the bank for 6 years now. Yes, she's enjoying her job because it's definitely her dream job. Working 8 hours, counting money, doing customer support, wearing formal office uniforms - that's the job she's always dreaming of.
At first, she enjoyed every penny she earned. She was able to buy herself new gadgets, new clothes, monthly groceries for her family and even giving her family their allowances. She's very proud of all her achievements and for satisfying her wants. However, life challenged her. Her parents died in just a span of 2 weeks. Her father was diagnosed with Chronic Kidney disease while her mother has Colorectal cancer. That was the start of her dilemma.
For 2 years straight, she did everything to at least give a little longer life to her parents. She sell all her valuable things. She maximized her savings including all her credit cards. She got company loans and even government loans. She kept on searching for a part time job because she need to earn more for her parents' continuous medications. Until all her sacrifices turned nothing. She can't do anything but to suffer from the loss of her parents and the loss of all her means of living.
From a very jolly person to a silent one. From a motivated banker to an unmotivated staff. She's blaming herself for not earning more for the medical bills she need to settle. The feeling of losing both her parents was way more than devastating. She's getting paid very little because of her multiple loans. She even can't afford to buy something for herself because of it. She's unhappy and hitting rock bottom.
She never questioned God for the circumstances and hardships that she is facing, she knew eventually that we will all leaving this world, however, after putting so much effort and sacrifices, the only thing that she wanted is to be with her parents until even she got married and grow a beautiful family were vanished into thin air. She started asking, why. Why life is so unfair for the struggling ones? She love her parents so much that up to today, she's struggling to sleep at night.
Acceptance is the only way that will make her start living again. But how? Healing takes time and the pain of losing her parents makes healing so much harder. Until when and where this pain will take her?
Please continue praying for all the people who has silent battles.
