Myar Tomlinson sat nervously in the cockpit of the small spacecraft, her partner Nelson Arbery sitting next to her. They were on a mission to collect samples from a distant planet, and everything had been going smoothly until suddenly, the ship began to shake violently.
"Nelson, what's happening?" Myar shouted over the noise of the alarms.
Nelson quickly scanned the controls, a look of panic on his face. "We've been hit by some sort of debris, the shields are down and the engines are failing!"
Myra's heart raced as she tried to keep the ship steady, but it was no use. The ship was going down, and there was nothing they could do to stop it.
"Nelson, we have to eject!" Myar cried out, her voice filled with fear and desperation.
"No, Myar. The ejection seats are damaged, only one will work and I will sacrifice myself to save you" Nelson said with a firm voice.
Myar shook her head, tears streaming down her face. "I can't leave you, Nelson. I can't lose you."
Nelson's expression softened and he reached out to take Myra's hand. "You have to, Myar. You have to survive. I love you."
With that, Nelson quickly locked the cockpit door and Myar could only watch in horror as he sacrificed himself to save her.
The ship crashed to the ground, and Myar was thrown from the cockpit. She hit the ground hard and lay there, tears streaming down her face as she mourned the loss of her partner and lover.
"Nelson, why?" she whispered, feeling lost and alone.
But there was no answer, only the sound of her sobs and the destruction of the ship around her.
second part -
Myar stumbled through her front door, her eyes bleary from the tears and alcohol. The once-tidy home was now in disarray, with bottles of booze littering the floor and dirty dishes piling up in the sink. She barely registered the mess as she made her way to the living room, collapsing onto the couch in a drunken heap.
She lay there for hours, lost in her grief and pain. Images of Nelson's face, his laugh, and his smile played through her mind on a constant loop. She could still feel the warmth of his hand in hers as he locked the cockpit door, sacrificing himself to save her.
Tears flowed freely down her cheeks as she remembered the promise she had made to him, that she would die if he did. Did she deserve to live? Was it possible to go on without him?
She reached for a bottle of whiskey, her hand shaking as she unscrewed the cap and took a long swig. The burning liquid did nothing to dull the ache in her heart, but it numbed her mind, making it easier to push the thoughts away.
She stumbled to her feet and made her way to the kitchen, searching for more alcohol to numb the pain. As she rummaged through the cabinets, she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror. Her hair was wild and tangled, her eyes red and swollen from crying. She looked like a shell of the person she once was.
She thought about ending her life, but she didn't dare to do it. She realized that she couldn't leave her loved ones behind. She couldn't bear the thought of them going through the same pain she was going through.
She grabbed a bottle of vodka and headed out to the store to buy more alcohol, her mind made up to numb the pain and suffering for just a little while longer.
The third part of the novel begins with Mayar waking up in a strange bed, disoriented and confused. She looks around the room and realizes that she's in the house of a man she doesn't know. She tries to get up, but her head is spinning and her body feels weak. She falls back onto the bed and closes her eyes, trying to remember how she got there.
As she lies there, she begins to recall the events of the previous night. She remembers running out of the store, feeling desperate for money to buy more booze. She remembers crashing into a man and passing out. And she remembers being taken to this man's house.
Suddenly, the door opens and the man from the previous night walks in. He introduces himself as Leon and explains that he found her passed out on the street and brought her back to his house to take care of her. Mayar is sceptical of his intentions, but she can't deny that she's grateful for his help.
Leon tells her that he's the head of a successful company, and he can see that Mayar is going through a difficult time. He offers to help her in any way that he can, and Mayar reluctantly agrees to let him help.
As they spend more time together, Mayar begins to see that Leon is not the shallow, uncaring rich man that she initially thought he was. He's kind, caring, and genuinely wants to help her. Mayar starts to open up to him and tells him about the tragic loss of her lover, Nelson, and how she's been struggling to cope with his death.
Leon listens attentively and offers words of encouragement and support. Mayar begins to feel a sense of hope for the first time since Nelson's death. She starts to wonder if it's possible to love again and if Leon could be the one to help her heal.
As the days pass, Mayar starts to realize that she's falling for Leon. But she can't shake the feeling that she's betraying Nelson's memory by moving on. She begins to question if it's possible to love two people at the same time and if it's possible to move on from the past without forgetting it.
The novel ends with Mayar at a crossroads, unsure of what the future holds for her. But she knows that with Leon by her side, she has a chance to find happiness again.