Looking at him was always so breathtaking, his eyes, his hair, his smile was truly amazing but what people didn't know about him, was the person he is online.
Although i wasn't perfect either i couldn't help but think, constantly, why did he do me like that? Was I That bad?
Someone else is going to hold him,hug him, wipe his tears and all i can do is sit and watch, holding my breath, why not me.
When I was with him I was absolutely nothing, I was just there but without him I was someone, I felt special without you.
Now that's odd coming from me, i always thought i couldn't live without him, but he needed me.
I awfully feel terrible i couldn't be there for him the way he needed me to be
Is that why he fell out of love?
I needed to fix myself, he understood that right? I needed my space away from everything, I wasn't a good person myself either, so I had to put myself first?
“I don't know what to do, I keep having mental breakdowns, everything just hurts” but yet I couldn't be there for him.
Why was i so terrible, i ask myself
It hurts to still love you because loving you was what I knew to do.
It hurts bc i know you don't love me no more, Were we supposed to end like this?
I tell everyone I don't care about you ”Stop lying” what.
“You know if he called crying you will take him back “
Truth is, i would take him back any day, no matter what situation it is, i'll be there for him, the way i should have been
“He sucks ass either way” “ No. he was never ass he was perfect” “ bro why you still defending him” I'll defend him always because i know he will never defend me, even though hes long gone, he was part of me
“*****” his name.
Each time his name is brought up or anything in that matter, my heart drops.
Not knowing why exactly but yet once again our memories are flooding through my head, Erase this boy from my memories, if he isn't going to come back
I always begged him for everything, things I deserved, but no, he never listened to my cries.
“I hate seeing you cry” then don't make me cry, stop saying things that you know are going to hurt me.
We can try to ignore each other, pretend we both hate each other but you know, we know, deep down, things weren't supposed to end like, we always said that remember? But yet I wish you knew how much I loved you.
I fought for your love every second of the day, gave you chances after chances because i believed you can change, i had always loved you unconditionally but you had always took that as a advantage to hurt me, to hurt the one girl who loved you after all the mistakes you had done
We had to agree, breaking up was the best choice, cause everytime we runned back to each other we couldn't love each other the right way, we just kept hurting each other in the most unexplainable ways, do you still love me?
Looking at her eyes, her smile and her cute body shape was just more than enough for me, she was so perfect
Perfect is a strong word, everyone knew her as the quiet girl but they could never know her the way i know her
But she was never that terrible, not the way i was
She was sweet, kind and awfully funny. Why did I hurt her that bad?
Someone else is someone else is going to hold her, hug her, wipe her tears and i can't do nothing about it, i had my chance to treat her right but i ruined it
I hate that fact her lips are going to be on another man, her looking at him with the puppy eyes she gave me, her beautiful smile, i really hate the fact she's going to love someone else.
When i was with her i felt special, i felt heard and seen but without her, i feel empty, she's my everything.
It's not your fault, you needed her but she was never there like she promised she would but i did that on my own, i made her change, she wasnt my sweet girl.
But how i wish she comforted me, i needed attention and she knew that, she just did not completely understand that.
I love her though, but does she love me back?
Hurting her was the only thing i ever knew to do, was it my fault that we ended sometimes i wish i can go back and never hurt her,
Oh where did my sweet girl go?
She's gone and she will never come back to me.
But what she doesn't know, is i'll take her back any day, no matter what situation it is, i'll be there for her, the way i should have in the first place
I wish she never fell out of love, she's was my home, my person, my purple
I wanted to fall in love with her in every single universe
It always caused me so much pain seeing her cry, knowing i was the reason
Although she always comforted me saying it wasn't my fault, i always wondered why she did that , why did she let me hurt her
My intentions with her wasnt always good they were awfully bad but the thought of her always forgiving me, made me feel good, no one had ever put up with me the way she did
Bring me my girl back, don't erase the memories i have of her because the memories is the closest thing i have of her, of My girl
At the end of the day she will never love me again
we thought it was best to end things, forever, i didn't want that though
We just couldn't love each other the way we wanted too,
but give me one more chance and i'll fix everything,
we just kept hurting ourselves in the most unexplainable ways,
but I promise, to earn her love back, my sweet girl, give us one last chance, believe in us, one last time, i promise to find you in another universe and i promise we will have the life we wanted here, i promise to love you correctly.
