Everyone has their own love story. It's about how they meet, date, love and marry. People talk about these things a lot. However , people don't discuss about those who got left behind , who didn't get to complete their love story. First love is always the strongest and also the one which breaks the easily. This story is about my first love. Let me tell u .
It was spring when I first saw her. She was as vibrant as a beautiful aurora stretched across the indigo sky. As cheerful as she was , her smile could light up the world. When I saw her , I didn't think much other than the fact that I would never do anything to hurt her. If we term my love as a mere crush , it wouldn't be describing it accurately. It's so much vast. So to cut to the chase, I will not write compliments about her . I could write a book about that and it would be too less.
She was talkative, unlike most people I met , she was like a little sunshine in my world. She didn't think much about me , more than a friend. She meant the whole world to me.
Am I going overboard with the compliments again ? It's supposed to be a short story. She was my classmate in 9th standard. Please don't think it's a stupid puppy love.
There are some moments in life where u meet someone and realise u would never forget that person. That was such a moment when I saw her.
The more the days passed , the more I grew close to her. She made me her friend and I entered her life. I knew she trusted me. She could rely on me. The one year I spent with her will be my most favorite memory.
I thought this happened in only movies until it happened to me too. When she used to be sad , she found peace in me. I hope she saw me through. If u think shedding tears while crying is sad, imagine crying without tears.
In her grief and her happiness , she resided in me . I hope she looked at me with love , she didn't. I could see in her eyes , gratitude and love for me , as a friend. I learned to live with it. I did my best for her smiles. Honestly it was worth it.
Only once I remember she couldn't face life anymore . She cried. She cried in my arms , letting out all her feelings, her emotions . Her tears soaked through my shirt and maybe drenched my heart. I don't know what it did to me , my heart was already strong by then.
Annoying her was a pleasure , how cutely she chased me when she was mad. I knew she liked it on the inside . Every time she was mad at me, all it took to melt her was simply touching her hands. They say girls are supposed to be high maintenance. If this was high maintenance I will take it for the rest of my life. Then one day all this came to an end. We passed on 10th grade and she went on to a different section.
As if life would give me luck to have her again. If only I could speak my mind and confess. I was weak. She still talked to me , shared her problems but something changed. I was delusional maybe.
I thought I was special. Perhaps she was kind to everyone. She started to date a boy. I was standing looking at them , my hands were tied . Of course I couldn't do anything for I saw something in her eyes which I never saw in them for me, love .
Funny how I knew I was the best for her and yet I saw her being someone's else's. I saw her happy so I let her go. One sided love isn't always meant to be successful. She was my whole world and I let her go. I didn't let this affect me . I loved her without expecting anything in return. The saddest thing is to be just a chapter of someone's life whom u have made your forever.
Ten years passed, there wasn't a day in which I haven't thought about her . She's gone and never coming back , I was trying to convince myself. I failed everytime , happily. I randomly bumped into her one day . Maybe it was life testing me , a test to see if this leads to a break down.
Oh my heart was well trained , it was vigilant and cold and broken somewhere deep inside. I asked her " Hey , how are you ? How's life going ? ". She looked at me in a way which suggested she was trying to remember me. My heart felt so broken that it wanted to stop beating.
She said " oh I remember you. You were my classmate from 9th grade. I'm fine . How are you ? ". " I'm ok too" , I lied. I looked at her hand , her wedding ring shone brightly .
I knew this was it. I needed to move on . " So, did u finally find someone? " , she asked curiously. I smiled , " yea " . I turned back and left , knowing I would never look back.
I found hope that day and a painful life lesson. I wished no one would face what I faced . I lived on in life happily never looking back again.
Sometimes a journey with someone is limited , not lifelong. It was meant to be a beautiful friendship . I am glad for the time I got with her . I wasn't sad because it was gone, I was happy it happened.
" One sided love is like a white marker on white board. It marks but always remains invisible. "
