Opening a bottle of 1792 12 year bourbon, he poured himself a glass. Taking a sip he closed his eyes and heard the door slam.
What was that? She asked slamming her clutch purse down on the counter. Why would you say what you said? She yelled.
I said what I felt. He sipped his drink again.
That's how you feel? Why haven't you shared your feelings with me? She snapped.
I have. He poured himself another drink.
When? When did you express how you felt to me? I've given you multiple chances to say what's on your mind. I've told you where I stand.
I'm not you. He raised his voice.
They stood staring at one another and she took a deep breath.
You embarrassed me. She spoke.
He rolled his eyes before sipping his drink, I don't see it that way.
Please paint that picture so I can see it too. She snarled. Let me see what you see.
We've been here already. Seems like a merry go round with this. He closed his eyes.
What are you referring to? Am I always going to have to read your mind. You think I'm psychic? This path we keep walking down keeps coming back to this. You say one thing and your actions are different. I play to your actions but I back off to your words. 2 years of this is just-. He cuts her off.
Shut up. He screamed and she walked over to him and slapped the glass out of his hand.
Look at me. She pointed down her body. Dressed in a silver beaded mermaid dress, hair pinned up and make up flawless. She smiled before saying. I have given you all of me. My heart, my time, my loyalty, - he cuts her off again.
Stop. He said.
My support, my affection - he cuts her off again.
STOP. He screamed.
My pussy, my mouth and still you don't know how to open up. She shook her head.
I open up. I open up to you all the time. But what happened at that opening was not the time or the place to open up. So you don't like what came out, that's on you. He stepped on the glass as he grabbed another glass from the cabinet.
Then why am I here. She asked.
You live here. He said as he poured another drink.
Don't be a smart ass. Not right now. She sighed.
My actions don't match my words? He asked.
They don't. She smirked.
Let's recap the night shall we. I gave my gratitude to the room and shared. He stressed, the encouragement and emotional availability you've given for me to get here. He said as she tried to speak and he stopped her. Would I even done that with you knowing how private and introverted I am. I spoke highly of you and my feelings towards you. So don't act as if I don't share or mean what I say or even show those feelings. He snapped.
Can I speak? She asked staring a hole into his head.
You will even when no one ask you to. He tried to sip his drink and she slapped it out of his hand yet again.
Wow, I'm just a toy for you. Someone you can play with and put down whenever you want huh. You have it in your mind that everything you think comes out when you talk. She made beak movements with her hands. I get it now, I'm not what you want.
You have lost your mind. He propped himself up against the counter.
Maybe I have, because you have drove me to that state. I don't know what you want from me and it shows from the opening and the way you are talking to me now. All monotone and nonchalant like I come a dime a dozen. No one is as dope as I am. She pointed at herself as she reached for her purse.
You done? He asked, If you are, you are here because I want you here.
To make it easier for you. To be there for you. Her voice cracked.
How so, because I asked you to move in? He said and she chuckled.
Yes to have full access and open availability to me. But that's all you wanted now that you are where you need to be there is no use for me anymore. She took off her Christian Dior sandals.
You make up all these theories and slight delusions of how you portray my feelings. When everything I say to you is clear cut and to the point. He put his hands in the pockets of his Tom Ford suit.
Then tell me how you feel about me. She stood on the other end of the island.
How many times do we have to do this. He said.
Exactly, nothing to say or were you going to talk in circles to make me seem crazy. I love you, what we are building here is amazing but I can walk away.
Is that what you want? He said.
No, obviously that's what you want. She said.
There you go again. He shook his head.
Are you serious right now? But I'm the crazy one. She laughed.
Since you know everything. Tell me why this conversation is happening right now? He stood up.
The opening was a success. I heard you talking to your friend about where you see us going and you told him no where. Then an hour before that you held a conversation with some girl for 20 minutes and you preceded to give her the smile that you give. - He cut her off.
So I have to smile differently with other women? He asked.
When I'm in the same room, yes! She moved towards him. So in my eyes you don't want me here. You've opened your business, which I helped you name and picked the location.
There she is...This is the woman I was waiting to hear from. The woman who loves saying what she did for me. The woman who wants the world to know all that she does.
Not the world just you. You don't seem to see what I do for you. She told him.
I shouted you out at the opening. I'm not understanding why your bugging. He stepped towards her.
We're not getting anywhere. She said looking up at him.
I am where I need to be. He told her.
She closed her eyes and backed away from him. Tell me how the opening made you feel?
I'm ecstatic, ready for my business to flourish. I'm proud of myself and the long hours I put in to get here. 18 months of hard work and it's all going to pay off. He smiled hard.
That's the way I want you to speak on me. That's how your reaction should be when you talk about me. Not once did you engage or kiss me after your owner speech. She said and he grabbed her face trying to kiss her and she tried to pull away.
Is this what you want? You want me to show everybody how much I adore you? He said as she pushed him off.
Adore! I can't any more. She stepped on glass and tried to move away from it and stepped on more.
She fell to the floor and looked at her bleeding feet. He grabbed kitchen towels and made his way to the floor with her.
Blotting her feet she watched him as he looked at her feet to examine them.
You have some glass in your right foot. I'll be back I'm going to get some tweezers. He walked off and she looked at her feet waiting.
He returned moments later and took off his suit jacket then climbed back on the floor.
So your going to leave me? He asked as she watched him pick glass out her foot.
She closed her eyes and wiped her forehead. She didn't answer due to him picking glass out her foot. The room was silent as he finished and put the towel back on her foot and held it as they sat facing each other.
We have 2 years in, we moved in together, we planned on getting a dog. We had an amazing night. You really want us to end? He asked her and she proceeded to take her hair down and jewelery off.
I've adored these 2 years. Isn't that the word you used. She said and he chuckled. Touch is sensitive for me and you know why and I let you touch me. The way you touch me gives me goosebumps. Intimacy is big for me and it feels right with you. She pulled her feet away and stood up. But I shouldn't have to walk you through your feelings.
Feelings are not my strong point. He stood up as well.
I know. That's why I have to go. I can't waste anymore time. She told him.
So I'm a waste of time now? He said with his arms out.
Your putting words in my mouth. I never said you were a waste of time. She turned to walk away.
Now who's not saying how they feel. He followed her until she stopped at the kitchen doorway.
She puts her head down before turning to him and took a deep breath. Not once tonight did you say you were in love with me or that you love me. After you finished your speech I mouthed I love you and you just smiled. So tonight was the last straw. I waited and waited for you to say those words to me and nothing, ever. Even when I continuously tried to get it out of you. So I'll just keep my love and give it to myself because I love me.
This is what all this is about. Look what we've built, we have this beautiful house, we both enjoy each other's company. Is that not love? He questioned.
You can express how you feeling about that damn G Wagon you got outside, how much you love it and you named it. All I wanted from you was to tell me you love me. That's all. She wanted to cry but held it in.
I love you. I love everything about you. He walked over to her and held her face making her look into his eyes. He kissed her lips softly and laid his head on hers.
It's too late. She looked him in the eyes.
Cali. He said softly.
Kevin. She said softly before walking away.
