~Sorry
I'm sorry I was distant I'm sorry I jumped about kissing others I'm sorry for flirting with my friends I'm sorry I got jealous I'm sorry I hurt you I'm sorry I made you sad I am sorry for destroying us I'm sorry I still love you I'm sorry I gave up on loving you so I can see you happy with someone else It hurts but I'll get through.
~Sorry again
I'm sorry I like texting you I'm sorry I love to send you stuff I'm sorry I am a bother to you I'm sorry I care about you I'm sorry I want you to notice I'm here I'm sorry I want your attention on me and not on him I'm sorry it hurts to see you with him I sometimes wish I was him so I could have you but I can't because I don't got the right parts I'm sorry I apologise alot I'm sorry that I can't stand seeing you with him I'm sorry I'm a mistake you made I'm sorry I destroyed your life I'm sorry I told you what he said I'm sorry I just wish you were mine.
~Sorry Family
I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you wanted I'm so sorry that I'm a shitty sister I'm sorry that I'm depressed And I cry alot And hide in my room I'm so sorry that I don't do everything that you ask I'm so sorry I'm not perfect and pretty I'm so sorry that I put such a damper on your lives And that I'm tired And antisocial Please forgive me for being a human being I really am sorry that I even exist I wish I could disappear to make it easier on everyone Seen as I'm such a horrible person Seen as it's impossible to be nice to me Impossible to deal with me Impossible to love me
~Love?
Your smile light up my life
Your laugh made me smile
Your eyes made me drown
Your hands that held me ever so soft as if you let go, I would disappear
Just by your touch, I was shy
Your soft cheeks, I poked
Your cute nose, I bopped
Your voice was so beautiful
The words you said were enough to have me love you
But I was not able to keep it
All the memories turn into nightmares
Those pathetic words "I love you"
You tried loving me
My smile did nothing to you
My laugh, eyes did not do the same to you
My hands to small to keep yours
My touch was worth, nothing
My cheek, nose you never touched
My voice was too ugly to make you happy
My words so bitter and sour was not enough for you to love me the way, I did you
But
Thank you, for trying.
~Forever
You said you'd love me forever Forever you said Now forever means nothing I'm no longer tied to you By forever I'm running my own game The game where forever Means absolutely nothing Your silly words Your infinity sign Your messages Your face Are locked in a cage? Your forever Means nothing To me.
~You
You took everything
you took my smile
you stole my laugh
you broke my heart
you took my love
you stole my light
you broke us
you took everything
and gave everything
to her
she has your smile
she has your laugh
she has your heart
she has your love
she has your light
she has you
she took everything.
~Lonely
lonely
its quiet here
in this room
no people
no crowds
nothing exept me
and...
well...
besides my thoughts
they are here too
making me less lonely
before i got lonely
i was with you
you held me in this bed
now nobody but me
it used to be loud in here
but now
my thoughts are loud in this quiet room
this room had life
but now its dead
i had a heartbeat
but now it stopped
got to loud
and...
well...
i listtened
Goodbye lonely
~Better?
It gets better Maybe not today Maybe not tomorrow But it will one day But tonight, I'm staring at my ceiling Remembering every mistake Every fucked up lie Every relationships I've destroyed Every single friends I lost Every sleepless night Every heart break Every single tear shed. Maybe I won't get better Maybe the mistakes, Fucked up lie, Relationships I've destroyed, The friends I've lost, Sleepless nights, Heart break, All the tears shed. I deserve all of it, All the pain I have caused, I deserve to bring it to myself. So, I drag the shape blade acrossed my skin, Watching the blood drip down, If does stop me from continuing my art. I deserve this believe. It will get better, Maybe.
~I LOVE YOU
I love you
I love you
I love you
Why do you think that I don't?
I'm standing right here in front of you
I'll never hurt you
All I ever do is lay in my bed wishing you were here with me
I'm literally yours
I don't talk to others
I don't think about others
And I want nothing to do with others
I don't let anyone touch me like you do
I don't get why you think I'll hurt you
I would never hurt you purposely
And everytime I do I feel horrible
I get mad when others don't get the hit that I'm not interested
I want you and no one else
I'm so tired of trying to convince you that I do.
I tell you all the time and you don't believe me..
I really do…
I have for 3 fucking years…
I tell you all the time
I love you!!!
What do I have to do to get you to understand that….
~Stop
I stopped loving her The second she left And I didn't cry. Why? Because She wasn't making me happy I spent most of my time crying and overthinking The only time she bothered with me was when it was convenient for her. I couldn't hug friends I couldn't cancel last minute Or tell her no. She was too possessive But last thing she said before we broke up was "I don't want to see you with somebody else." Well I am sorry but my love stopped for you. I need to love myself and appreciate my body I was a beautiful body and I don't want to cover it up because of others. I don't need your love Because I have the love of my family And then love that only I can give myself. P.S. Tell her to stop texting my family.
~The end~