There's a time that i recall my first love during my teenage year. Me as a man who fell in love in same sex its not good apportunity for me.

I meet him during my third year level, his a sporty one while me, im a Feminine this circumstances my self aware this man not gonna like me the way I like him; however the though of mine is wrong.

One day i accidentally bump to him, although its not hurt he genuinely say sorry to me and i accept his apology. That day I thought that is all, however in a following days. We end- up meet continuously and he genuinely and humble greet me simple saying "Hi!". For me that word is meaningful.

I contented on that set-up but the fate is playful, when am sitting alone in the corner of the library he approach me and then we have a meaningful conversation we talk about simple staff to personal staff. We laugh and understand each other.

Following days, he ask me to watch there game in basketball court and i agree on that; now the day of the game i end-up watch him playing his sport. My feeling toward him get deep in mine, his manly gesture during play make me fall hard.

Now the day past and our conversation continues and I with his team got better, there was a time they invite me to hung out with them. Months past and my year as a third year high school got meaningful and fun, bcs of him, he treat me a part of his team too.

Me as a one of the top student i help with his work, there is time that he ask me to do his homework and some school work,he said he can't do anymore some school staff, bcs of busy schedule as a athlete.

I help him and his some of his member, then one day some of my professor called me to her office and genuinely ask me, If there's any problem ill dealing with. I genuinely say that I'm fine and there's no problem; she believe me, however she state in this following days she watch me and caught me sleeping during class. She gave me a good advice and say to me that even Im a good student this action is not considered.

I accept my mistake and starting to refuse to bond with my crush team every night, but when he ask me to do his some of schoolwork i continuously do it. Like of this schoolwork, this is some of his project for the upcomin end of this semester.

I finish it and i satisfied in my job, am going to pass this to him. Walking happily to the court, thinking what expression he gonna show; however use to walk in the other side of the corridor when i saw them past. Now i walking and followed them at the back, i run fast toward them to able me to followed up at there walk. meter distance and i gonna call him when i heared there conversation that make me stop and slowly move to continue to hear him talking.

I heared how they talk to me and laugh, his word kill me to death i started to watered my eye. I stop in my walk and bow my head i end up stand in my position while them continued to walk until they gone. I come to there house and knock at there door, his mom open the door for me and offer to come inside; however i refuse and state that i just need to draft this off and its to late for me if i will wait to his son.

Because of that accident i starting to distance my self in him, i also starting to refuse his request and demand. Following days i start to go home after shool and not picking up his call.

Until a day he spot me going out and walking outside of the school, he talked me and ask if what is the matter, I answer him that everything is fine. However he not believe on that, he shout and force me to talk about my thoughts and I end - up spoke to him my side. Seeing him and hearing me, I saw him get feel guilty and left is tough.

After that day, he want to apologise sincerely and trying to explain his side, however I refuse to hear him and continue to distance my self. Up coming days i got busy because of the heading final exam. I focus my self to review and study well. EFFECTIVE my time and mind divert on that and sometimes I forget him.

He continue to call me and text me trying to solve the problem. However i decided to forget him and focus in my one goal to finish my school.