One day, I was going through a nearby temple, The day was rainy and windy, So I was wearing a raincoat, I wasn't in a hurry but the rain make me run. That day, I met her. Golden bright hair, cute face, innocent eyes that could make anyone fall for, the best idol. I was also a man, so I couldn't stop staring at her. She hadn't noticed me till that time but when she saw me, she ran away. I was like surprised what have happened that such a damn cute girl ran away seeing me. Maybe there is something in my face, I thought and rub my face with my hands. There was nothing. Thinking of it as a dream, I blabbered, she's impossible for me. The next day, I was going the same way, and the surprisingly same thing happened again. Same hair, same dress as before. Also, she ran away when she see me. That time, I like it, but I was the person like I don't care the shit about other people, so I didn't follow her. This thing happened to me for about a week. Since it happened for a week in a row, I abandoned my noncaring personality and thought of following her. The same day, she didn't appear at the usual place. What is this? I said to myself. She used to come and when I was thinking about asking her, she was absent. Was she playing with me or what? It was better when I don't care. Saying this I went back to my home. I took out my clothes and jumped into the bathtub. After bathing, I came out of the bathroom and went near the window, I saw the same girl passing by his home. Without thinking anything, even not wearing a t-shirt(only in shots), I ran towards the road. Walk properly, mom shouted but I didn't pay attention. I went running and finally come out the door directly falling from the stairs. I didn't feel the pain. What was the feeling, I didn't know, I just wanted to hold her in my arms and talk to her. I finally saw her. I ran towards her and hugged her. But what happened there made me shocked. She slapped me, cried for help saying to me a pervert as if she has never seen me. I became frozen. Some people came and after a certain discussion with the mother, it was solved saying it was my misunderstanding. I wasn't talking about anything. Mom took me home and lectured for about twenty minutes, but for me, it passed in no time.After scolding for a while, my mom asked me not to do such things again. What had happened to you dear, she said. I was still in shock about what happened outside. She noticed that I wasn't speaking anything as being in shock. she said to rest. I was still thinking about that when I put the toes of my right leg in the mousetrap kept nearby. Holy crap, I couldn't tolerate it, so I shouted loudly, aargh, ouch! Why the hell is this trap doing here? Anyway, that mousetrap had made pain for me but it also helped me freed from that thinking. I finally returned to myself. That day of my life was spoiled. I tried to search for my mobile, but it was drowning in the bathtub. I asked mom for help and thought of cooking food but all food was burned, so my mom had to cook again. After being bored, I finally thought of going for a walk but on the road, I got an accident, broke my leg and got leave from home for a week in the hospital. That day in my hospital also went worse. I was mistakenly given the wrong medicine and was forced to vomit all out by the doctor. I was feeling dizzy for the remaining time. The next day, it was 8 am but I was still sleeping. Someone comes to visit me but from the window. Seriously, are you human? You climbed from the ground to the third floor! I didn't know who was that person but that person was hiding his face with a mask. I was frightened so I simply pulled the emergency button off my room myself and some nurses gathered around. What happened boy, they said. while I was explaining to them, that person was gone from there. I think that was my hallucination. Nurses thought that I was just fooling them so they warned me not to do that again otherwise they would give me an electric shock. Ughhh, I wasn't frightened with them, not at all, but I pretended to be. Then, they went away. Simultaneously, my doctor came to my room with my mom. My mom was still crying for me. I forcefully stepped up using a whatever thing and went near my mom. I said cheerfully, mom, look like I should use this thing for a week, will you always cry and .... I couldn't complete my sentences that she hugged me tightly. I was in heaven, this is the power of mom's love, looks like my all pain is gone, I was thinking like that. Suddenly she pulled my ear and whispered, if you ever make me cry again, I will make you do all the work for a month. I was happy and scared at the same time. I turned back and a feeling crossed my mind. It was the same feeling as that day when I first time saw that girl. My heart wouldn't stop pounding. It was a feeling that no one can explain. Pain, happiness, sorrow, no not any among these. It was different. I felt like that a total of three times including then. It was still morning but doctor came and said me to return home that day. I took my crutch and returned home. The next day, someone came to visit me at my home but returned without visiting me. I even didn't know that until my mom told me about it because I slept in my room between video games. See son, She told me to give this to you, my mom said in loud voice thinking that I was wearing my headphone. What was that, I said without being surprised. Open yourself, she gave me the box. I had a glimpse that something important was given to me but still I didn't open it. I put it in my drawer and thought of getting fresh air outside. Within a day, I'd mastered walking with my crutch. So, I took the permission of my mom and went outside of the home. While walking, I thought about my few past days. (I mostly used to sit in my room, even sometimes forget to eat food for whole day. At school, I used to sit the whole break with my two friends until they got their girlfriends. And now, I am walking in the streets even on the holidays. I didn't care about anyone but liked a girl so much that wanted to hug her but got slapped instead. All these thoughts come to my mind one by one. I used to think it was a pain to think these things before but looking back I was wrong. I think I was just hiding from myself. I wanted to live a peaceful life with no one interference at all. But now, I think I want all the people around me to look at me. I need attention of every people. Mainly, I need love....) oh, what am I thinking this? I messed my hair. At the same time, one of my classmates (who was said to be my friend but left me helpless when he got a girlfriend) called me from my behind. Girls are tough, aren't they, he said. Huh, what are you talking about all of this sudden, I replied. What else, Just because I flattered another girl, she dumped me and went. I was happy with the things that happened to him but I couldn't show that to him. I just act like showing pity and escaped from there as soon as I could. He saw my fractured legs but didn't even asked about it. What a friend, isn't he? Actually, we shouldn't make friends that are just toxic to ourselves. Anyway, just forget about him. I returned the same route towards my home. It was already dusk. Time sure flies away. On the way, I saw my one of the published stories was trending. Oh, I haven't told you about that, have I? I am a writer, I mean I write some storybooks as well as novels as a hobby and send them to publish. Only two of my creation have been published so far. I am not a professional one but was happy seeing this. Today sure was a peaceful day, I thought and went home thinking for my stories as I usually do while walking. I returned home and sat down in the bench in kitchen. My mom was preparing dinner. My dad was the General of our country and my mom was a teacher. Since my dad passed away, my mom left her job. I was about age six or seven I couldn't remember properly neither the incident nor the face of my dad in real. That day, I totally forgot about the box that I got. I was happy all the time though. The next day, I woke up early in the morning and sat down in order to do all my assignments for my school as I had to go to school now. And holy crap, I haven't done even a little of it. Surely, I will get punished today, I started to tremble. Look like I shouldn't go to school today too. I lay down a bit when I suddenly remember that box I got previous day. I rolled around the floor and reached near the drawer, and took out the box. Wow, the box was hand made and with some pretty designs. It looked wonderful. I looked around the box, up and down, side and side. I really loved the way the box was made. Now, Its time to open the box, I thought in my mind. There was a small rope which would untie the box. I gently pulled that rope. I was so flattered that it looked like I was pulling some rare items in the game. The blue rope, ahh, I will keep not only the thing whats inside but also the box and rope. I wuv them. I finally opened the box. Inside there was a small earring. I was thinking like are you serious, is this sent to wrong place and many things because I was a boy and there was an earring of a girl. I kept it inside the box as it was and went to ask to mom. Mom, who did send that box yesterday!! She said that there was a girl of same age as mine. She had thought of her as my school friend or mostly girlfriend. So why didnot you stop her,I asked her furiously.Mom said that she was in hurry and was all sweaty. She didn't talk anything rather than "give this to ...." Suddenly a spoon fall from the table and mom stopped talking and continue her work as if she knew nothing. Leave it , I will just keep it and wont overthink, who cares about it, I thought all these things and went back to my room. Later on I focused on doing my assignments and finally completed them before school time. Phew, I was a lot of work, I said. Then, I went to school. I no longer need crutches for walking. In school, I am as pathetic as ever. Sloppy in class, have no friends and so on. I was named antisocialist slowpoke by some of my classmates. But I didn't care about it. They don't know my true nature after all, I used to think. But still, somewhere in my heart and in my mind, I was hoping to have fun with my friends and my girlfriend. Ultimately that day, while I was returning from the school towards the home, I saw the same girl following me. Firstly, to check whether she is following me or not, I tried to deceive her. I went in a place with a heavy crowd and hide somewhere. My doubt was clear. She was really stalking me. I tried asking her about it but suddenly I remembered that day when I was slapped. So, I again gave it a thought and return to my home through my usual route. I wont even reply even if she called my name, I thought and was walking on the street. I saw an empty can on the street and I kicked it with my leg. Oops, it went straight and hurt someone. I was scared. I hurried over her and said, are you hurt? I am sorry. I am really sorry. *********************************************************************************************** Unfortunately, she was the same girl whom I had saw the first day. She was who slapped me that day and also following me the whole day today. I thought if she might not be going to school. After such things happened to me before, I thought of ignoring her this time. Also, my heart was beating as hard as that day. She was in my arms though. So, I was blushing, who wouldn't!!! She was closing her eyes for a moment so I kept her on a nearby bench and tried to return back. Umm, hello, listen, Thank you for your help, She said. It sounded so cute. Still I hold up my emotions and without turning to her, I replied no problem and walked. Suddenly, she hold my shirt with her two fingers only. I knew it would happen because she wanted to say something. In spite of all these, the feeling was very nice. I had seen these types of seen in some animes and movies, but it's happening with me in my real life. It looked like even if she would kill me, I wouldn't stop liking (loving after some days though