And I don't want you in my forever
Then why are you on my mind
Why do I remember all the moments
Our lips intertwined.
and it shatters my heart
When I start to remember
How your words pierced through my soul.
Like to you, I didn't even matter.
But will there be a day,
When your name would be just a name,
When I'll let another boy kiss me,
And not wish it was the same?
I hope there's a day
When I run into you on the street
Stares exchanged & I'll walk away
Like you meant nothing to me.
And because I hate you now,
Doesn't mean I never loved you before
And just because you're broken me now,
Doesn't mean you've never healed me before
and I tell all my friends
How I wish you were dead
But do I really mean it?
Or all the words left unsaid?
Because even though
I've closed the door.
And threw away the key.
I still kind of wish
You'd find a way
To run, swim, crawl
Back to me
It's kind of insane
But is it really?
It's easy to tell me to move on,
When I thought I'd marry you at 23.
But I wanna call you up
In a few years when I'm better
I'll meet you for coffee
Like it doesn't matter.
And we'll laugh & joke around
Like you didn't ruin me
Like my heart never dropped and never made a sound
Like you never brewed tears in me.
Because I hate to say
I miss you
I hate to say
I still care.
I hate to say I'd let you back in
If the chances were fair.
