In life sometimes we go through hard times, the season when we lose very important things that we love, that mean a lot to us. Sometimes you become confused thinking that is bad luck, and try to change things by doing some rituals and consulting Traditional healers to change things, sometimes we spend even our last cent trying to fix or change the bad things we are going through. In this article I write about the true story of my life I went through.
Since I started dating, all my relationships haven't worked. I was dating ladies from outside my birth place, I was dating ladies who are not staying in my original place. All those relationships never worked for me, until one of my colleagues told me that ‘because I'm from a village why am I dating girls that are growing in urban areas? Because my standard and their standard are not matching, that is why all my previous relationships didn't work. She told me to change my dating method and get someone from the village where I was born. The girl that I know, and that understands my lifestyle. I took her advice and took a leave from work, and went home.
When I arrived at home was when I met a lady that I knew from her young age, was a good looking lady, so cute and above all her good character was spot on. Was a church girl who was committed, and was blameless? Even at home they suggested her to be my good wife. On another Sunday I went to church, it was a good church service and they picked her to pray close the church, and pray thanking a wonderful service. She prayed and I was very blessed imagining her as my wife, the mother of my kids. Then the church was closed, I went straight to her and complimented her for the prayer. I told her that her prayer touched me so much then we had a good conversation. She welcomed me with an awesome smile. I felt deep in my heart that finally I found my soulmate. I asked for her number but she refused, then I was happy that she showed interest in me even though she refused to give me her number. I attended church services and that is when I got that she was a good teacher of the word. We had fun for the whole week spending some time together, talking about life in Christ until she asked me ‘when will you get married, with who? I told her that if I had a partner like her I would have married. We had a good time. Then I bought a soft drink and I counted that day as one of my good days.
Finally, she accepted me to be her boyfriend, to marry her. And my days were so awesome I started to become very happy. Celebrating to find my soulmate after all my previous relationships with the urban girls that failed. We dated for 1 full year then we decided that ‘let us introduce each other to our home to the elders. Then we agreed to take our relationship to another level. We planned for our wedding and shared good ideas about where we were going to build our house, how many kids we wanted, and we shared all our ideas and planning for our future. The problem started the day when I posted her on my Facebook. She told me to remove her photo and what will the pastor think when he sees her on my timelines. Then we had a little argument and we fought until she blocked me from WhatsApp and Facebook. Then we stayed a few days without talking to each other. After a while I called her and she picked up my phone then the argument got worse until we broke up.
From that day is when I experienced the terrible days of my life. It is when I see the darkness surrounding me. I felt like I lost everything I had. I felt like I had nothing to enjoy in my life anymore. I was very stressed in a way that even though I didn't see the reason for working, I didn't see the reason for living. That feeling became worse when people asked me about her, asked me about my wedding. I started to isolate myself from people. Not even using social networks on my phone. Locked myself in my place not wanting anyone, because many times all people asked me about my girlfriend and about my wedding. I was very hurt and very stressed. I was not able to eat and was not able to sleep. Then mental damage took over. I was experiencing very bad days ever in my life because I was losing everything I had. People which I don't know withdrew my money from my bank several times. I lost my job. Everything I touched was a mess, nothing was going well, no happiness at all but only sorrow pains and problems. My phone was broken. I went to the shop to buy another phone using my credit card. I found out that there is a certain company that translates my money from my credit card. The money I left with was not enough to buy the phone I wanted. Then the stress was getting worse.
No one was on my side. I missed my parents' wish that if they still arrived, maybe they would comfort me. Even my friends were mocking me about my goals, about everything I told them about me and my partner while things were going well. I decided to take them out of my life. I was ashamed of myself, I cursed the day I was born. The worst thing was people who borrowed money from me but never paid it back. I lost all the money I had until I left with nothing come month end. I have to pay my bills, rent for the house, my accounts and my credit card. I had no power for praying anymore. I felt like God forsaken me. I felt like God did not exist at all. I felt like going to church was a waste of time. Nothing will help me. I started to hate the church. And the hatred became more and more. All the things I was thinking were negative things, not even one good thing. I felt like it was the end of the world. I tried to act like I was ok in front of people, but when I was alone I cried cursing everything about me. I thought of committing a suicide but I didn’t get an easy way to kill myself. I lost so much weight. I felt like I was living in hell. I hated everything about faith. I burnt my bible.
The other day my friend came. My friend, who is the pastor. I told him everything I was going through. He prayed for me. And he kept on visiting me daily, to revive my soul, to bring back hope. He told me nothing will help me when I am locking myself inside the house, not going to church. He bought me food and paid rent for me. He was a blessing from God. He told me to forget everything I lost even though the lady was not meant for me. Maybe God was protecting me from the bad thing she was going to do in the future, because God knows the future better than us. He told me that what I am going through is not bad luck but is the season of struggle that is passing. I am tested. Test brings testimony after this test. I will testify. From that time, I got back a little hope of life. He asked me if I have any talent that I can use to get money. I told him that I like to write. Is it going to help me to get some cash? He helped me a lot and I wrote my book which I am about to publish very soon. Now I write articles online for some websites and I get paid. Life is not the same anymore. I believe this story is going to bring back hope to those who are going through a hard time. If God did help me, how could He fail to do the same to you? Now I am writing this story on my laptop which I bought a few days back and I believe this story is going to be helpful and motivate someone going through hard times. I want to get married. I have a girlfriend who is supporting me in everything I'm doing.
Be blessed, thank you!
