ICU
It feels like a total numbness. I don't know what, I can't move my body. Where am I? All the wires are tangled in the body. Oh, what is tied to my head? where is my hair Two men wearing white coats came and looked at me and said something. Yes, I understood that I am in the hospital. What is wrong with me? I remember going to the market to buy fish in the morning after the children went to school. When he was coming back, a lorry was coming towards him. Well, what if he can't remember anything. I hear some noises outside. That voice is mine. I can recognize that voice no matter how far away. We are those who are married in love. Although the family objected, we did not want to separate. Our life went on happily for fourteen years. God gave us two adorable children. Our smile shines. Minnu is the youngest. She is talkative. She always wants me with her. Chinnu loves her father. We used to say that and fight sometimes.
My children must be sad to see me. Etan is coming to see me. He didn't fight outside just to see me. I know that you are touching my hand. Why is Etta crying? I have nothing to fear. Is Etta not listening to me? Is she not crying? Da Etta is going. Why don't you stay with me? I also want to come out and see my children.
Who is sitting outside? Our father and mother. The last time I saw my mother was at a wedding party, but she didn't even look like she saw me that day. At least now she has come to see me. Minnu is lying on her father's lap. She has longed to sit with her father and listen to stories. My children's wish has come true. I am happy.
Dad...........look at me dad.Didn't you once say that my inner daughter is dead?Are you still angry with me? Call me father. Why is no one listening to me? If I can't even hold my children together. What a fate this is, God.
The doctor came and said something to Etan and could not hear him. Why is everyone crying? I can't bear to see my children crying too.
What does the doctor say is my brain dead? How can that be true? I can see everything and hear everything. And how is my brain dying? At eight they were going to sign the consent form for my organ donation. I can see Etta's hands shaking. Don't you sign it Etta? Nothing happened to me. Don't you see me standing here next to you? Don't let these crooks sign me away.
Why did you sign it? They are cheaters. They cheat us because we are poor. I saw a smile on their faces when they bought it and went inside to get more money.
Oh I feel like I'm suffocating. I feel like my head is going to explode. They are killing me, Etta. I can't do anything. Please take care of my children. If I have another birth, I should live with Etan. Father, mother, don't hate me. I have always loved you. None of my hopes were fulfilled. I couldn't breathe at all. Like someone is pressing my eyes shut.
My children
