It was the year 2019, i moved in a new colony. I was in 5th standard and my brother was in 3rd standard. There was a temple at the end of the colony. It was a calm and sweet place. Very pure and polite. I shifted there on 9th september 2019. We were the first member to enter a new builded building. It was my granny's friend's building. She invited us to stay there. I, my granny and my brother lived here alone. My dad and mom lived in Dubai. We completely moved on in that building. After shifting, for one or two days we were here then we will go to dubai. for the first time i went out in my new colony to make friends. It was the year 2019. there were two boys riding cycles, i didnt knew who they were. later on i get to know that their names were gopal and amay. the younger one was amay and the older one was gopal. when i was quitely walking down the street, amay came to me and stopped his bicycle infrount of me to disturb my way. i asked him to move, but afterall he was a kid. so he teased me and went off like a stubborn, spoiled brat. another kid was gopal, he was less stupid than amay tho. i came back home and in a week we went to Dubai. we stayed in Dubai for 6 months straight. We heard that there was a pandamic going on in India. It was corona, also known as covid-19. As soon as we came in India, there was a lockdown. It started on march 2020 and ended in 2022. The generation who has survived the lockdown will know how hard it was. who haven't, i will tell you.

Millions of peoples were dead in these 2 years. It was like, corona ruled the world for 2 years. My family were at home for 2 years straight. We didnt even came out of our main door. My 6th and 7th standard was done through online classes. After 2 years, we started to move out. As it was a new colony, i didnt had friends. I came in outside my building and there was another building named govind appartment. I went there and saw that the kids were playing football and most of them were of my age, some were younger and some were older. In that building there were a trio of 3 girls- unnati, rutuja and shreeya, rest of them were boys. I join that trio and made a squat. I made some more friends. They were the kids from the building and my friends aswell.

Amay was gopal's younger cousin brother. And damn!!! my first crush aswell. I had a crush on him in 2019 actually but that wont consider i guess. so, I had my first crush in 7th class, he was the same age as mine. At this time i didnt even knew what crush meant. I had a crush on Amay for a month and when i realized that he dont like me back, i moved on. LOL. As we know that everyone looks cute in childhood and when they grew older they kinda looked hot. No, i didnt had crush on Amay again, but I had a crush on his brother Gopal who was 2 years older than me. Yeah i know that i am stupid, making crush when i didnt even hit puberty. Okay nevermind.

So, i had crush on his brother. At this time, Amay and I were enemies i guess. Because we were friends but hated each other alot. In Govind appartment there was an underground. This building was made by Amay's grandfather. So technically it was Amay's underground. we all used to play board games there. Sometimes it was just me, amay and my bro. We were the closest among others.

The building in which I lived was shri sai vrundavan. There were kids in our building aswell. And also my so called friends. You will get to know later on in the story that why I mentioned them as my "so-called friends". I was the oldest among them. Their names are- Aayush, Stuti, Naitik, Aditi, Mitali. Mitali was my best friend among them. So, it was the year 2022, when mitali told me that she has a crush on amay. And i also told her that i liked gopal.

At this point we were helping each other to get along with our crushes. I didnt told to anyone that my first crush was amay. I was focused on gopal right now. But everyone from govid appartment and from my building knew that I had the biggest crush on gopal. Because i was stupid enough to tell that to everyone. When i was telling to unnati that i like gopal, that stupid amay heard that and decided to help me in the most weird and dumb way possible. Yeah, still u can undertand with my words that how much i hate amay. So the plan he gave was, "write a love letter for gopal and hide it in his shoes". WOW!!! SO BRILIANT IDEA. Stupid dump trash.

Ofcourse i didnt applied this stupid idea. I was in 8th standard at that time and amay told me in underground that gopal has a girlfriend. And yeah i was a stupid, even after knowing that he has a girlfriend, i still had a crush on him. WOW. so, as amay said that i should write a love letter, i did, and it was the worse decision ever. Till that, i helped mitali to get closer to amay, i tried every way possible, to make them sit together, to push her against him, to make her talk to him, blah blah blah. We three had a app named discord, where we used to chat. I told him on discord that mitali likes him, he didnt believed that, but still i kept insisting.

One day when amay, i and rishabh (my brother) were in undergroung, watching a movie. amay asked me that who was my crush, he knew still he is such an asshole. As i cant say directly that it was Gopal, i said 10. it was gopal's flat number. and till that my brother saw it that i showed 10 fingers using my hand. He ran away to granny to tell that "my sister had a crush on gopal". Ofcourse i was scared and after 5 minutes i went home. While i was leaving the underground, i told amay face to face that "mitali has a crush on you". He was confused ofcourse, cuz he is dumb afterall. When i reached home, my brother already told to my granny that i have a crush on gopal, so i should accept that and i did.

we three had enjoyed alot together. not in that way tho. you dirty minded peoples. we uses to do group studies. sometimes we used to hang out in underground. we used to play board games while his mom gave us fruits and chips to eat. it was really fun together. one day, i, rishabh and amay made a tower of bed in underground. it was very high. to fight, we three of us went up of it. Amay and rishabh pushed me down and i fell. after that it was amay's and rishabh's fight there. rishabh pushed amay and he landed on head. he was literally upside down. and LOL, as he was upside down, his stomach can be seen. damn, he was fat as fuck. i said "amay, you are so fat". the way he started covering his stomach got me and my brother laugh. it was soo fun together.

After that, while i was in school, i wrote a love letter for gopal ( worse decision ever). I wrote that stupid love letter, there was gopal's female bestfriend named shrushti. she told me that gopal confessed to her that he loved her but she rejected him and said that they can be bestfriend instead. So i told shrushti that i liked gopal and gave her the letter to pass it to him. I could have gave that letter to amay and ask him to pass it on to gopal, but there is no way in ages that i will trust that dumb trash. i gave it to shrushti and told her "give this letter to gopal and ask him to write his answer on the back side of the page".

Yeah i was soo stupid to think that gopal will also like me. At the time of diwali, i, shrushti and mitali has a discussion about gopal. We used to play diwali with them, i was wearing a lehenga. As i stepped in my building from my home, amay saw my stunning look. I applied lipstick for the first time ever. He looked at me and burst out laughing. My granny was with me so i cant even punch him on his face. Nevermind, as if i care that he is laughing on my looks, he looked more trash than me. Yeah i accepted that i didnt looked good in childhood. But he was more alike the person who pick up trash. So, as usually i helped mitali to get closer to amay, and i was focused on gopal.

On 18th september 2022, i had a weird feeling about the letter which i gave to shrushti. I was playing badminton with my friends, i spotted shrushti and was about to tell her that "give me the letter i changed my mind". Till that she came and spoke up " i am sorry, i am going out right now, tomorrow i will hand over your love letter to gopal". Before i speak up, she sat on scooter and went out with her mom. I was speachless and continued to play badminton with my friends. As he was my first long crush (second actually, no one ever knew that amay was my first crush) , i was obsessed with him. I learned his phone number and wrote it on wall. I have no idea that why i did that. Amay was with me aswell. Instead of stopping me from doing these shits, he insisted me to make a heart there and write my name aswell -_-. He is a legit beggar!!!

Then the next, on 19th september, when i was coming back from the school, i saw that some pages are tore away infrount of govind appartment. I didnt made that a big deal. In the evening, as always, i went to play in govind appartment. There was a kid named bharat, he came to me laughing and said, "are you serious? look at your face, you dont deserve him".

I was confused and also understood what he wanted to say. I went to unnati, rutuja and shreeya. I asked them what happend. As they knew about my letter giving plan to gopal, unnati said "gopal tore your letter". I was still confused. Ofcourse, i cant accept the truth so easily. At around 6-7 o'clock, anuj came to me and said "are you serious? you like him?" i said "like whom?". He went to gopal and pointed at me and said him "she is the one who gave you the letter right?". I was shocked. Everyone knew. How? why? when? I didnt knew how to keep up the act. after that, i was sitting at a distance, i saw that amay was talking to gopal while pointing me out.

I knew something was off. i get up and started to leave. Gopal shouted from back "stop there, i want to talk to you". I didnt listened, i ran straight to mitali because she was my best friend at that time. As i stay on the first floor and she is on the fourth floor. I went to the fourth floor. I knocked on her door, it was her mother. I asked her mother that, "where is mitali?" her mother called her. till that time i was waiting for her outside of her house. mitali came out, i was literally crying. I sobbed, and told her "Gopal rejected me, he tore my letter into 100 of pieces". i was still sobbing. I hugged mitali even tho she is not a "hug person". my granny called me from the first floor, and i left. Now, this timeline was fucked up. I and my granny had a conversation.

"did u did something?" she said.

"no!! its just nothing" i said.

"why did gopal's mom called me and asked me to send you down??" .



does my granny know that i wrote a letter? does she know that i confessed my feelings yo gopal?? NO!! she dont know.

"i dont know, let me talk to her" i answered.

I went back to govind and saw gopal and his mom was waiting for me. His mom looked furious. She waited for me to come inside of the building. when i entered, she was sitting on the bench and i was standing. Gopal was leaning on the bike. she spoke up,

"this is what your parents taught you?"

"no, i am sorry" i answered in fear.

"you call him as your bhaiya right? then what is this letter and all, should i tell this to your granny?"

At this time, i knew, that he either showed the letter to his mom or he told her orally. i was creating different fake stories in my mind to say her and convince her. I spoke up after a long awkward silence between us

"sorry aunty, it was a dare from my school"

"why someone will give you this stupid dares?" she said, "who else is involved in this?"

"mitali, she was helping me to complete the dare" i said.

"i am leaving you for this time, but dont do this again, and dont play with gopal anymore" she said

See, at this moment, i knew that gopal had a gf. If i want, i could have expose him.

but by exposing him, i dont want to be like him. i was a good person after all. so i stayed quite untill gopal and his mother leave. i went home and gave some stupid reason to my granny to avoid the arguements.

I didnt knew, i thought that amay was involved in this matter too and he asked gopal to tell his mother about this. Since then i started to hate him more and didnt even mentioned him as my enemy.