As always, Clearance is so fulfilling. We started the evening off catching up while he finished preparing dinner. I loved seeing him in the kitchen, he worked so naturally. Clearance was preparing one of my favorite meals: meatloaf, corn on the cob, homemade mashed potatoes and biscuits, yes, I am a simple chick. Dinner was done and the table on the patio was set. He knew me well and I love that. Tonight was one of those summer nights with that one-night air that is so perfect for hanging out outside all night. I love the fact that he pays attention to me to something Clayton stopped doing a long time ago. It used to hurt once upon a time the lack of attention I was getting from home. I changed that around though by loving myself more and locking in on my inner peace. Clearance and I laughed and talked for hours buuuut I will say my favorite moment was our dance! It just feels and felt so damn good being held by a man that is so strong and dominant yet has no problem with submitting to you. He grabbed my hands and placed them on his shoulders as he pulled me in close. Wrapping his hands around my waist he snuggled his face between my neck and shoulders kissing me lightly on each area, it felt just as good as the night breeze. Without realizing at first being this close to him, naturally, I began caressing his back while my head rested on his chest as we danced to "Superpower" by Beyonce and Frank Ocean. He smelled so damn good, and damn he was tall and thick. See I always said I wanted a country man it's just something about their mannerism. I pulled away but still felt so connected. I just looked up at Clearance and instantaneously my body went up into flames. I cupped the back of his neck and stood on my tippy toes to indicate I wanted and needed his physical contact. I question myself sometimes on how I could openly have an affair and more so walk in the house and look at Clayton in the face without any care in the world. It's sometimes scary what a broken heart can turn you into. We kissed like we were hungry for one another. We made our way under the canopy where to my surprise blue rose petals covered his cream outdoor furniture. It was absolutely beautiful. Of course, I was thrilled to see the bottle of Deleon in the ice bucket, the night just got a bit wilder and more interesting it was time to bring out "Stella" my alter ego. I poured our drinks and yes, I made them potent but not to where we would be falling all over the place but just enough to knock any edge off. We talked for as long as we could. He rubbed my body from head to toe this man always makes me feel so damn high. Once that Deleon set in it was go time, I was fully activated! I stood up from where I was sitting and stepped in front of Clearance, I don't know what came over me, but my body began to move in ways I forgot it could. Whatever I called myself doing it had his attention. Sza "Love Language" gets to me every time I couldn't help myself my body was in heat, and I was craving this man. I moved my hips slowly from side to side as I Unbuttoned my dress, I felt so sexy when it dropped to the floor. Sure, he could have hiked my dress up, but I didn't want that, I needed to be fleshed to flesh. I walked slowly towards Clearance never breaking eye contact. Once I was all the way up on him, he scooted forward and slid his hand up and down my legs, caressing me so gently. He kissed my body none stop that is until I bent down and kissed him and demanded for him to sit back. He did so. Next to drop were the white laced thong I had worn just for him. He loves to see me in white lingerie. While I danced for him, I insisted he take off all his clothes, so by the time I was ready to work my move he would already be available to me. We had sentimental passionate sex tonight. We were vulnerable to one another and for the first time Clearance told me he loves me! My physical being froze however, my mind flew in every which direction like a loose stack of papers sitting in front of a fan and my body melted away.