I'm so in love with Randy honestly since the beginning of time he was all I wanted. We started dating back in high school the whole on again, off again type of situation. Regardless, I loved him and to this day I still do but he just won't stop hurting me. Randy and I are more than lovers. We are best friends I mean a serious connection and the sexual chemistry is so intense. I could never fully explain why I was so captivated by him I guess it's so many reasons. It's hard to depict which one to speak on first. I know he loves me too but the life he lives and the demons he's fighting I'm not sure if I want to love him anymore and it pains me, however it's the reality I must face. He ghosts me all the time. One minute we're in love on a mission together and the next he's gone without a trace.