I'm choosing to let it all go
The way these nothing ass dudes have tried to treat me.
Like they don't know that I'm mutha f**kin Nikki.
Playing me like I'm the OTHER when I'm the f**kin ONE.
Lying to me, ghosting me, playing in my face.
All will backfire, because I finally am letting all of it out to be free.
No more me no more you
As for the memories lord knows I can't wait for the day those are gone too
Acting as if I not mutha F***kin pressure.
When it was a privilege for you to be within my presence.
For a minute I was hurting, I'll admit
Fell low in my spirits, cried out to you time after time
Yet you gave not even two f**ks in trying to hear it
Dragged me when I was down and out, at my lowest
My own stupidity for all of you clowns that wasn't even worth me grew outta hand
So, I started praying loud to my lord to knock some sense into me
Cause I could never allow a fool to go on me.
That self-love to my mind, body and spirit woke me up
Became my own emotional support
Never been the type to need a man to lift me up.
Locked in on my life and set myself free to explore my own dreams
Damn it feels good to finally be able to learn and know me.
My heavenly Father has begun to open all types of doors for me
Crazy, cause just last month I only seen this happening in my sleep.
It's amazing what life will do when you love yourself.
I still get sh**ty at myself at how I've allowed myself to be treated
Lesson learned the s**t made me strong and alert
It made me reevaluate myself now I understand what it means to know my worth.
In a better headspace now, sound mind let me say.
So, I'm to myself tight on towards everything
Can't let nothing or nobody get in my way
I'm tunneled vision to what's not elevating me
Setting an example for my little boy
That it's always possible to fulfill your destiny
The hurt you clowns put on me created a better me
Woke up the beast within me that slept so peacefully
I'm glad she's woke
She's making me, me
I'm the mutha f**kin GOAT