Continues.
Can we still be together?But.
It was the start you changed March 2nd week, sometimes you never update me, you never messaged or call. I didnt know what happened to you and to us. Until one day, you just messaged me that we need to stop this because you have a dream about us that we did something against to your religion. In my mind, like how and why. I messaged you from that time and called you but you never responsed. Was it the Ghosting that they called?
I was destructed in my work. One time, I cried alone in the site at the back, the Perimeter Fence. I cried as loud as I can because no one can hear me. I asked myself and God what happened,was there something wrong with me. Why Lord? Was I not deserve this kind of love. These were the questions on me. Days passed but my heart was still hurting. I went to church and I cried to the Lord. All my eyes were "Pugto". I cant stop crying. Eveytime I was thinking of you, I cried. Every afternoon after work, I walked outside the site and wishing that a day will come that we will cross again and I will asked you personally. I almost wish in the moon "Hindi sa Talang nasa Langit kung hindi sa Buwang Nakasilip, Ibigay ang hiling ng Matang Nakapikit" : "Sana Magtagpo ulit Tayong dalawa sa huling pagkakataon". I almost not willing to eat because of my pain. I didnt go out with my friends.
In that evening, I messaged you. I will wait you in front of the mall near in Mang Inasal where we used to it. I was with friends and I told them they can go shopping. I will wait you there and hoping you come. Then a guard came near me and asked why I was there. I told my story about you that I was waiting for you. He just said "dont wait him, if he love you he will never hurt you". And I saw myself crying again. It was pain, I was hurt,my heart was in pain; 4hours waiting from 7pm to 11pm. But no Ronald came. I was sitting there crying and wiping my tears. My friends came and invited me lets go no need to wait,you did your side. That was okay. Just pray for your healing. Day after that, I refused to eat from bfast and lunch,but dinner I cannot. In my mind " Nagdadrama ka pero nagutom ka,sira ang pagiyak". I told myself its okay to cry in pain but no need to make you hungry. Just feel the pain and time will come you will laugh and smile again.
As the days went by, we were still walking outside the site and still hoping to see you.
We were going back and I saw you. I didnt know how to look at you. You just said hello like nothing happened. You asked me if we can talk. And I just said Yes and wait for me. In my mind is it for closure.
Was this talk can be a second chance or a closure for me so I can fully moved on.
How this talk will affect us. What will happen after this?
Continue at Chapter 3