October 15th 2015 was the day of my life I have always been peaceful in my own zone I had things lined up for my future and it was peaceful I will never let anything fill me with doubts especially all the difficult things I have been through and on this special day I have ran into my ex from 1992 I was 12 years old and he was 14 at the time now I'm 35 at this time oh did he look so good kind nice awesome in times and still look the same with those pretty brown eyes just a little older now I have not seen him in years and to lay my eyes on this young man after being in a marriage for 9 and 1/2 years and dealing with guys that would even work my time but the lessons have been good family type guys get on the road I don't have anything to pay because of their lack of responsibilities I'm taking care of women I have been so in and out since my marriage so any love at the moment was good for me but this one guy that night at the club I seen him knew nothing of him just knew him from the past but you know how we live and I'll be one way you'll be the other but never got a chance to know each other because we are based on the past history which wasn't anything important just a way of showing love and getting love now it started out very nice knowing he had all these baby moms and all of these past history of things he do in life never took a toll on how I felt just settling just imagine going the way marriage for 9 and 1/2 years and then your spouse up and leave because there is nothing he see there which hurt it so bad but I got through all of that I was in lost without him I had things overly things in the past before him so I know how to function and be without him but never thought that that they would be for him to find another lover and leaving with no disguise of where he's going where have his been just come in and out and pay the bills and I never seen them again chapter one of would look good it's not always good for you .. to be continued