Cristoval Valencio Vilasco POV
I was sleeping peacefully until I feel something small feet's jumping up and down in my bed, making me groan.
Damn I'm not planning to wake up early today.
"Son, stop jumping it's still early" I said in my morning voice, while trying to open my eyes, but the sunlight hit my eyes making me closed my eyes again.
"DADDY! GOOD MORNING!" when I able to open my eyes, I saw my son... Grinning ear to ear while looking down at me....
He still in his cute bear's pajama, with his messy hair... And cute dimple, I sit up in bed and open my arm's to him, inviting him for a morning hug.
Without thingking twice he jump in my arm's and hug me like a koala, making me smile in content. I ruffles his messy hair and kiss his forehead and ask.
"Good morning son, did you sleep well?" I look down at him and smile softly at him..
He give me a cute smile before answering "Of course daddy! I sleep well, I even have a beautiful dream last night daddy!"
I raised my eyebrows at what he said... "And what your dream all about huh? Little guy..." I ask causing him to smile widely.
"My dream is about us daddy!. In my dream I saw us.... But.. I saw a girl" I norrow my eyebrows at what he said...
A girl? Why would he dream about girl? "Then? What did the girl do little boy?" I ask still raising my eyebrows.
"The girl took care of me and you... And you both are so sweet daddy.. it's look like she's your beloved" He said making me froze.
Beloved? I scoffed quietly while thingking about that... Since THAT day I didn't dare to go out with other girl again...
No girls are real, they're all fake.
After they get what they want from you, they will going to leave you and act like nothing happened....
I look at my son in my lap and sigh"Son, am I not enough for you? Do you really want to have a mother?" I ask him curiously.
He grow up without a mother, and I know deep inside he want to have a mother.... Even if it's not his biological mother, as long as he is being treated right it's enough for him.
He been dreaming and wanting a complete family, but.... How can I give him that... When I'm not ready to LOVE AGAIN.
I know I can't just do whatever I want, I know I need to give him a complete family like other kid's.... But the question is.. how?.
How can I do that when I'm not ready to open my heart again.... After what happened 5 years ago.
The heartache's, the fresh wound of my heart, the pain, and the cries. Those scene..... I still remember it all, freshly.
And I don't want to get hurt again, that's why I closed my heart to anyone who tried to enter... Not because I don't want to, but because I'm scared.
I'm scared that what happened to the past will happen again.