May be I can't change what's happened to me, but I can change how I chose to move forward, how I want to grow, to heal, to bloom. How I can be the change I want to see, make choices that align for me, that make me feel more at ease, that let me learn new way to feel joy, contentment and let my nervous system feel connected back to safety this is what I can change this is what I can choose growth. May be when you feel more in love with your memories than with the person standing in front of you. But you can't let go of the people your heart choose -----your heart won't let you give up. Are you happy? In all honesty! No, but lam curious I am curious in my sadness,
and I am curious in my joy. I am eversheeking, everfeeeling. I am in awe of the
beautiful moment's life give us, and 1 am in awe of the difficult ones. I am
transfixed by grief , by growth it is all stunning, so rich and I will never convince
myself that I cannot be somber, cannot be hurt, cannot be overjoyed I want to
feel it all I don't want to cover it up or numb if. So no, 1 am not happy. I am open
and I wouldn't have it any other way.
"Sometimes it's easier to pretend that you don't care, than to admit its
killing you."
Sometimes we don't show what we feel we know there is no one to heal. And
then you stop expressing thing if it is small thing or bigger thing. May be things
will turn out far better than what you have prayed for.