As i sit up on my bed waking up the first dau brandnew but still cant shake the feeling in the pit of my stomach .the feeling of loss the feeing of my heart break .what now .i want to grab the phone call my luvbug ,monkey,or sissy my perfect girls.but i stop myself.i put them thru enough .they finally seen me happy for alittle.i thought everything was perfect.so stupid so dumb i told myself .after all that you did it again,after all that .i trusted you.but then i think ,no your not stupid no your not dumb you just loved him so hard so deep abd it was a love that you couldnt exsplain no words could fit right.How could he after we waitied so long 3 years and just like that like we were all just nothings he never even knew.lol ya know iþs funny really stupid and funny.