One thing I noticed when I first lost him was that almost all the books—the self-help books from so-called experts, some of them doctors—said to not look back. To realize I couldn't go back. Basically, to forget. To walk away and shut the door on that past chapter of my life.That is not what I needed.I needed to examine the life we had. The choices we made. What I wanted to do with that in the pre ...