Double L
I don’t think I know how to really get over this shit. I was in love with a man for almost 3 years and I seen my whole life with him. Granted this ass was not perfect but damn it he and I fit. Even though he was a show off, arrogant, talkative, selfish, self-absorbed, pretty hood dude, and I could not stand him because of all that. But what made him different until this day, I honestly still Daniell him. He was really the sweetest person under the bullshit, to me anyways. Here it is 2022 and our relationship ended 2016 literally right before the New Year going into 2017. When I say I ain’t never in my life experience a heart break so bad.
I was in my early 30’s working at a 4 star hotel, in the downtown Detroit area. At the time I was seeing this young dude. He and I were 5 years apart. I liked him we had fun had some bomb sex. I mean bomb, the head was amazing. The dude body was like an African King. He was chocolate and the muscles my God, I knew the body Miguel had God made that body personally. Miguel was no more than 5’4 and that might be a stretch, I’m 4’11 but 5’1 on a good day. But one thing I know is the way his meat hung between his legs was priceless, the veins and the length and width, just made you want to kiss the tip of his dick every time he pulled it out. I enjoyed sex with him, he knew what he was doing. He was a young dude so I knew it wasn’t going to last. Even though he really wanted a bigger role in my life I just couldn’t. It was an age gap and I didn’t see forever with him. We was just in it having fun. Long story short I found out he was moving real bad. He had another girl who lived 2 hours away and was telling people that she was his best friend, it was just a mess. On top of that we worked together and hung with all the same people. My feelings was hurt some but I mean I kind of blame myself because I knew better. But I bought him a car, I used my tax money and got it. I never been the type to care about money and when all my shit together and paid, why not bless the less fortunate. Not saying he was some bum ass dude, at the moment he was down. I respected his grind and him for going out the way to make sure I was good. He tried to move like he was a man with money and bitches, when he just had a little bit of both. Now remember how I said we hung with the same people and we all worked together. Well here is the break down, in 2011, Amber, Melissa and myself all got hired the same day and time at the hotel. So maybe a few months in we became friends and with time we became really close. Now that we’re friends’ hell we meet other people and just become a gang of work friends always hanging out. Our kids played together, we did shit together and everything. Miguel was cool with them as well. Amber was getting married to her long term boyfriend of 7 years at that time. Amber asked Melissa and I to be in her wedding, yes we were that close.
Before the wedding Amber and her soon to be husband Daniel wanted to have a small bowling party, just to break the ice between everybody in the wedding party. The night of the party I had to get my daughters ready for bed before I left. I finally get to the bowling alley and that’s when I met everybody, the vibe was cool. Now I’m not saying I was the coldest female there but I mean I am cute and it was a few guys who never meet me before. So of course I’m talking to Daniel, I’m really like a homeboy. He introduced me to his brother who I was walking down the aisle with. And I must say he was a cutie, he had good hair, dressed nice, kind of stand offish, nice smile, I’m guessing he was 5’6 or 5’7, he had a little weight on him but not too much. Now the conversation started when Daniel introduced me to his brother Daniell but he had two ll’s instead of one. He laughed talked a little and flirted some. After that night things were cool, the ice has been broken. Mind you at around this time I’m still kicking with Miguel but not like I used to. I went to work and I asked Daniel what was up with his brother. Yes Daniel works at the hotel as well and he and Amber and I are supervisors at that. So I pick Daniel brain about his brother. I mean what’s tea I am walking down the aisle with him. So Daniel gets to telling me that little Daniell is single just got out of a relationship and he has no kids and a good paying job. Now the Daniel boys came with their group of friends, they all grew up together. So they called them big Daniel and little Daniell, they weren’t actual brothers just really close friends. At this point I’m like ok cool, Daniel asked if I wanted his number and I was like “does he want my number because if so he can call me” and the message was delivered and little Daniell was on my phone. That first day we talked all night I am nonstop, the phones died but we was back on it. Again still with Miguel but I’m not paying him any attention because he was on fuck shit and I was trying to be on the same thing he was on. Maybe a few weeks into talking to Daniell on the phone he tells me some tea about Miguel. Yes, tea about Miguel. Now, how the hell Daniell has tea on Miguel. Like I said before when you worked at the hotel everybody knows everybody. Daniell was telling me that Miguel been in the shop running his mouth and not only was it about me but it was about other bitches and photos bitches sent and little Daniell seen them all. Now should I have believed shit I don’t know but I did, I never told Miguel I knew anything. Little Daniell told me and I was like damn pull up, just like that. Now I ain’t fuck him but I did let him taste me though and I must say I loved being his snack.
Little Daniell and I are just having fun and doing our thing. Now Daniell knew I was still with Miguel and it was getting closer to Amber and big Daniel wedding. Now at first of course Miguel and I was going to the wedding together. But I was finding any reason not for him to come to the wedding, I mean I am fucking the groomsmen and I have a situation going. I thought Miguel wasn’t going to come to the wedding and sure enough when I talking to Little Daniell before the wedding starts Miguel walks ups and hugs and kiss me on the cheek. Talk about an awkward moment, I just knowing that I’m fucking both of them and we are all in the same place. And of course people knew about it. Well the people in the tight circle knew what was up. I ain’t no dummy I know how to play the game. The thing that made it so funny is that both dudes was kind of mad and the both felt some type of way and not to include the guy that cuts hair in the shop works at the hotel as well. And John was cutting everybody hair from the hotel and even cutting people from the hotel relatives. The night is coming to an end Miguel already left and course he wondering where I’m going and little Daniell wants to know where I’m going. Little Daniell and I got in the car and went to his brother house to get his car. That night I was feeling really risky and I was so close to fucking little Daniell outside on the hood of his car under the street light. I mean why not hell I’m freaky like that. But I couldn’t partake in the activities because I was on my period so both them dudes was mad for nothing. Now over time I was just over Miguel shit and also little Daniell l was coming around more and we started hanging out more. Miguel noticed the change and he started coming around more as well. He wanted to take me out more and wanted to stay the night more and I’m like ok dude what’s up. You know the saying when a good girl goes bad she gone forever, oh yeah it was for sure one of those. My mind was so far gone and I was starting to feel little Daniell, I mean how could I not this man had me cumming in 2 minutes no matter what position and again the head was amazing. At this point things were getting a little sticky, no lie I defiantly was fucking both of them in the same week, days apart, and even on the same day. It was all in the timing my friend, I have a high sex drive. But I really was getting sick of Miguel, the messages started irritating me, the thought of him being around was starting to irritate me, his voice was irritating me, and just the thought of him was starting to as well. At first I was just holding on cause I wanted to get back but hell I started getting bored with it. But with time I stopped responding and coming up with excuses to why I can’t come over or why we can’t hang out. Even though I was making the excuses I was with Daniell most of the time, all my free time went to him. One day we was on the phone and he asked was I still entertaining dude and I told him not really and his man told me “oh, you need to do something about that.” I just laughed it off because I didn’t think that was an ultimatum I thought it was because he knew some shit was going on with Miguel. Little Daniell started being a little distant and I knew he was seeing other people but just like all dudes he down played it. But it kind of put me in my feelings, who told him that he can see other people while seeing me. But I get it I was the one with a situation and he was newly single. I ended things with Miguel because I caught him up in some bullshit and I told him I was done and he tried that I love you shit and that fake crying shit. Now I was focused on getting little Daniell back I don’t even know why I wanted him so damn bad. I started calling him more and texting him more.
In, time little Daniell and I started really connecting. I learned his secrets and he learned mine as well. We always went on dates and enjoyed each other company. It didn’t matter what time it was we would talk about whatever. Most of the time he really was a corn ball but the other times he was really knowledgeable. He had a thing for cars, ole school cars. He had bought one and had it parked at big Daniel house. So most of the time he was working on his old school and I lived down the street from Amber and big Daniel. It was times we would just sit over their house drink laugh and talk shit. Little Daniell he was a goody two shoes, he didn’t smoke or drink. Looking back at it this man was spoiled and it was my fault and I didn’t care. I wanted him to feel the love he deserved, even though I’m kissing and telling I don’t tell a man’s secret. Just know there was hurt in his heart and I wanted to be his peace. There would be nights were I would pack the girls up and we would stay over his house for the weekend. He would stay over my house for weeks at a time. We would share a car, at the time we really had no reason, then it was a time when his car broke down and it was already in habit. I would come over his house and clean up, fold his clothes. Hell I even went in the closet and colorized his clothes from darkest to lightest, I would iron his clothes, have dinner ready for him when he got off work, it has been times I had taken him lunch on my days off and he worked in Ann Arbor. Shit it wasn’t nothing I wouldn’t do for that man, I never understood it but that’s who I wanted to be for him, he brought that side out of me and I loved it. I would get him little thoughtful gifts, even gave him $500 to help with his old school, he was into guns as well and I was looking for this one gun he wanted so badly. Let’s just say it wasn’t cheap hell nothing about that man was cheap and I didn’t mind cause I’m not cheap either I like what I like. When I had it he had it and when he had it I for sure had it, he never had to ask me for nothing. I wasn’t balling, I am a single mother but you know how many extra checks you get out the year. Now I know you’re thinking girl you did all that for him and y’all wasn’t married. The thing was I treated him the way he treated me, that man has paid bills, gotten my car fixed, fixed my car, took me on beautiful dates, helped me with my kids, and the gifts. The man can pick some gifts he pays attention to details. He purchased me some diamond earrings for Valentine’s Day. One day Amber and I were at the nail shop and he called me and asked where I was. I told him where and he pulled up came in talked to the nail tech and told them to cut my nails down. For whatever reason he did not like me with long nails but he then he paid for them and left. It has been times where he would just call me and tell me to get ready don’t ask no questions just be ready. Of course I still was rushing cause hours before, in my book means late minute. But over time I would just already be dressed and ready, you don’t have to get ready if you stay ready. A few of my many lessons he taught me. You I gained so much weight with this man from me cooking and him taking us on dates, things he like to do. Another lesson I learned pay attention to a man’s likes and interest, I am almost sure that will help you navigate how y’all will spend your relationship. Little Daniell and I was like the best thing in the world. It gave me Joker and Harley Quinn vibes, that’s how in tune we were. People knew we was together and people knew we was coming together. Even if he say he ain’t coming and he knew I was coming he was pulling up. This man never kept his eyes off of me. When we would be in the club he would have his shades on and that man would be watching me. Will find me out of all the people in the club and I felt him looking at me and watching me and watching the people around me. I’m either going to dance while he’s watching me or I’m about to pop some shit with some hater. But it didn’t matter because his eyes was on me. The way he bragged about me was different. He would send pictures in the group chat the things I bought or when I would clean his house and make up his bed. He even told some friends that they could never pulled the type of woman he has because I’m in a different tax bracket. It was just so damn sexy how he handled me. Little Daniell was the first man I ever been with that could complete me 100%. I mean have you ever dated a man in Detroit who had no kids, his own car, his own place, and his own job, and could make shit happen when need be and had street cred and smart and responsible. That shit is so fucking rare and I treated him like he was.
Yeah I know so if it was so perfect then why are we here. Little Daniell had so many problems with me, he thought my kids were spoiled and he was very judgmental. He wasn’t patience with me and what I was trying to do. Like I said I ain’t have it like that but when I did I made up for it. There was a time when he wanted me to move from my apartments. I mean yes I was in the hood but I mean I can afford it and it was my place. He would send me houses and I would express to him that I won’t be able to cover that rent on my own and I didn’t want to set myself up for failure. He told that “I’m going to pay half of it.” Now me not knowing I paid no attention to what he was really saying. I told him no and I wasn’t ready yet, I wasn’t making enough money to manage a house. Now before we talked about me moving, he sent me a picture well a few pictures of different types of rings and shapes. I told him the ones I liked and the color I wanted, at that time I wanted a chocolate diamond and I wanted my diamond to be secured because I didn’t want to lose it. Now months after that we didn’t talk about it again. But I noticed he was being distant and weird towards me. One cold night at Amber house outside while he is working on the car I brought up being pregnant. Now there was no for sure answer I just knew I was a week late. I was stressing out because my relationship with little Daniell was rocky we was getting into it and everything, just bumping heads. One day I was talking to Amber and she was just like maybe y’all should just call it quits until he figure things out. At that time I didn’t know what that meant but I told her yeah I was going to fall back because I didn’t understand what was happening. So just when I fall back he start back calling me and stuff. I paid no mind thinking everything was going back to normal. I think maybe 2 weeks after that shit just hit the fan. One minute I was talking to him and we were going back and forward and he hung up the phone and then he blocked me. He blocked me of social media and when I told his brother and Amber to tell him call me and talk to me he wouldn’t do it. I even went on social media and wrote this long status about how he left me and I didn’t want nobody to ask me where he was and that we were done. During the first week of the breakup it was hard and of course all his friends was there for me came over to my house some days and I went to their house. They really wasn’t getting answers from him either and he was distant from them as well. Nobody really knew the pain I was going through. Yes everybody seen me sad and crying, I called off work 2 days in a row, I was depressed, I wasn’t eating, I really didn’t know what to do. I never cried over someone is hard in my life, the first month was the hardest because I found out I was 5 weeks pregnant. When I found out I was in a state of shock, I called Daniell and I got no answer I still was blocked. I was going to have Amber and big Daniel reach out to him but I felt like he would have thought I was playing or just trying to get him to speak to me. I had already put it in my mind that I was going to get an abortion because of the conversation he and I had I had the appointment set going into my 8 weeks. I cried almost nonstop and going into my 6 weeks I woke up to a bloody mess, it looked like it was from a crime scene. I threw my sheets away, took me a shower, and I went to urgent care.
I don’t think I know how to really get over this shit. I was in love with a man for almost 3 years and I seen my whole life with him. Granted this ass was not perfect but damn it he and I fit. Even though he was a show off, arrogant, talkative, selfish, self-absorbed, pretty hood dude, and I could not stand him because of all that. But what made him different until this day, I honestly still Daniell him. He was really the sweetest person under the bullshit, to me anyways. Here it is 2022 and our relationship ended 2016 literally right before the New Year going into 2017. When I say I ain’t never in my life experience a heart break so bad.
I was in my early 30’s working at a 4 star hotel, in the downtown Detroit area. At the time I was seeing this young dude. He and I were 5 years apart. I liked him we had fun had some bomb sex. I mean bomb, the head was amazing. The dude body was like an African King. He was chocolate and the muscles my God, I knew the body Miguel had God made that body personally. Miguel was no more than 5’4 and that might be a stretch, I’m 4’11 but 5’1 on a good day. But one thing I know is the way his meat hung between his legs was priceless, the veins and the length and width, just made you want to kiss the tip of his dick every time he pulled it out. I enjoyed sex with him, he knew what he was doing. He was a young dude so I knew it wasn’t going to last. Even though he really wanted a bigger role in my life I just couldn’t. It was an age gap and I didn’t see forever with him. We was just in it having fun. Long story short I found out he was moving real bad. He had another girl who lived 2 hours away and was telling people that she was his best friend, it was just a mess. On top of that we worked together and hung with all the same people. My feelings was hurt some but I mean I kind of blame myself because I knew better. But I bought him a car, I used my tax money and got it. I never been the type to care about money and when all my shit together and paid, why not bless the less fortunate. Not saying he was some bum ass dude, at the moment he was down. I respected his grind and him for going out the way to make sure I was good. He tried to move like he was a man with money and bitches, when he just had a little bit of both. Now remember how I said we hung with the same people and we all worked together. Well here is the break down, in 2011, Amber, Melissa and myself all got hired the same day and time at the hotel. So maybe a few months in we became friends and with time we became really close. Now that we’re friends’ hell we meet other people and just become a gang of work friends always hanging out. Our kids played together, we did shit together and everything. Miguel was cool with them as well. Amber was getting married to her long term boyfriend of 7 years at that time. Amber asked Melissa and I to be in her wedding, yes we were that close.
Before the wedding Amber and her soon to be husband Daniel wanted to have a small bowling party, just to break the ice between everybody in the wedding party. The night of the party I had to get my daughters ready for bed before I left. I finally get to the bowling alley and that’s when I met everybody, the vibe was cool. Now I’m not saying I was the coldest female there but I mean I am cute and it was a few guys who never meet me before. So of course I’m talking to Daniel, I’m really like a homeboy. He introduced me to his brother who I was walking down the aisle with. And I must say he was a cutie, he had good hair, dressed nice, kind of stand offish, nice smile, I’m guessing he was 5’6 or 5’7, he had a little weight on him but not too much. Now the conversation started when Daniel introduced me to his brother Daniell but he had two ll’s instead of one. He laughed talked a little and flirted some. After that night things were cool, the ice has been broken. Mind you at around this time I’m still kicking with Miguel but not like I used to. I went to work and I asked Daniel what was up with his brother. Yes Daniel works at the hotel as well and he and Amber and I are supervisors at that. So I pick Daniel brain about his brother. I mean what’s tea I am walking down the aisle with him. So Daniel gets to telling me that little Daniell is single just got out of a relationship and he has no kids and a good paying job. Now the Daniel boys came with their group of friends, they all grew up together. So they called them big Daniel and little Daniell, they weren’t actual brothers just really close friends. At this point I’m like ok cool, Daniel asked if I wanted his number and I was like “does he want my number because if so he can call me” and the message was delivered and little Daniell was on my phone. That first day we talked all night I am nonstop, the phones died but we was back on it. Again still with Miguel but I’m not paying him any attention because he was on fuck shit and I was trying to be on the same thing he was on. Maybe a few weeks into talking to Daniell on the phone he tells me some tea about Miguel. Yes, tea about Miguel. Now, how the hell Daniell has tea on Miguel. Like I said before when you worked at the hotel everybody knows everybody. Daniell was telling me that Miguel been in the shop running his mouth and not only was it about me but it was about other bitches and photos bitches sent and little Daniell seen them all. Now should I have believed shit I don’t know but I did, I never told Miguel I knew anything. Little Daniell told me and I was like damn pull up, just like that. Now I ain’t fuck him but I did let him taste me though and I must say I loved being his snack.
Little Daniell and I are just having fun and doing our thing. Now Daniell knew I was still with Miguel and it was getting closer to Amber and big Daniel wedding. Now at first of course Miguel and I was going to the wedding together. But I was finding any reason not for him to come to the wedding, I mean I am fucking the groomsmen and I have a situation going. I thought Miguel wasn’t going to come to the wedding and sure enough when I talking to Little Daniell before the wedding starts Miguel walks ups and hugs and kiss me on the cheek. Talk about an awkward moment, I just knowing that I’m fucking both of them and we are all in the same place. And of course people knew about it. Well the people in the tight circle knew what was up. I ain’t no dummy I know how to play the game. The thing that made it so funny is that both dudes was kind of mad and the both felt some type of way and not to include the guy that cuts hair in the shop works at the hotel as well. And John was cutting everybody hair from the hotel and even cutting people from the hotel relatives. The night is coming to an end Miguel already left and course he wondering where I’m going and little Daniell wants to know where I’m going. Little Daniell and I got in the car and went to his brother house to get his car. That night I was feeling really risky and I was so close to fucking little Daniell outside on the hood of his car under the street light. I mean why not hell I’m freaky like that. But I couldn’t partake in the activities because I was on my period so both them dudes was mad for nothing. Now over time I was just over Miguel shit and also little Daniell l was coming around more and we started hanging out more. Miguel noticed the change and he started coming around more as well. He wanted to take me out more and wanted to stay the night more and I’m like ok dude what’s up. You know the saying when a good girl goes bad she gone forever, oh yeah it was for sure one of those. My mind was so far gone and I was starting to feel little Daniell, I mean how could I not this man had me cumming in 2 minutes no matter what position and again the head was amazing. At this point things were getting a little sticky, no lie I defiantly was fucking both of them in the same week, days apart, and even on the same day. It was all in the timing my friend, I have a high sex drive. But I really was getting sick of Miguel, the messages started irritating me, the thought of him being around was starting to irritate me, his voice was irritating me, and just the thought of him was starting to as well. At first I was just holding on cause I wanted to get back but hell I started getting bored with it. But with time I stopped responding and coming up with excuses to why I can’t come over or why we can’t hang out. Even though I was making the excuses I was with Daniell most of the time, all my free time went to him. One day we was on the phone and he asked was I still entertaining dude and I told him not really and his man told me “oh, you need to do something about that.” I just laughed it off because I didn’t think that was an ultimatum I thought it was because he knew some shit was going on with Miguel. Little Daniell started being a little distant and I knew he was seeing other people but just like all dudes he down played it. But it kind of put me in my feelings, who told him that he can see other people while seeing me. But I get it I was the one with a situation and he was newly single. I ended things with Miguel because I caught him up in some bullshit and I told him I was done and he tried that I love you shit and that fake crying shit. Now I was focused on getting little Daniell back I don’t even know why I wanted him so damn bad. I started calling him more and texting him more.
In, time little Daniell and I started really connecting. I learned his secrets and he learned mine as well. We always went on dates and enjoyed each other company. It didn’t matter what time it was we would talk about whatever. Most of the time he really was a corn ball but the other times he was really knowledgeable. He had a thing for cars, ole school cars. He had bought one and had it parked at big Daniel house. So most of the time he was working on his old school and I lived down the street from Amber and big Daniel. It was times we would just sit over their house drink laugh and talk shit. Little Daniell he was a goody two shoes, he didn’t smoke or drink. Looking back at it this man was spoiled and it was my fault and I didn’t care. I wanted him to feel the love he deserved, even though I’m kissing and telling I don’t tell a man’s secret. Just know there was hurt in his heart and I wanted to be his peace. There would be nights were I would pack the girls up and we would stay over his house for the weekend. He would stay over my house for weeks at a time. We would share a car, at the time we really had no reason, then it was a time when his car broke down and it was already in habit. I would come over his house and clean up, fold his clothes. Hell I even went in the closet and colorized his clothes from darkest to lightest, I would iron his clothes, have dinner ready for him when he got off work, it has been times I had taken him lunch on my days off and he worked in Ann Arbor. Shit it wasn’t nothing I wouldn’t do for that man, I never understood it but that’s who I wanted to be for him, he brought that side out of me and I loved it. I would get him little thoughtful gifts, even gave him $500 to help with his old school, he was into guns as well and I was looking for this one gun he wanted so badly. Let’s just say it wasn’t cheap hell nothing about that man was cheap and I didn’t mind cause I’m not cheap either I like what I like. When I had it he had it and when he had it I for sure had it, he never had to ask me for nothing. I wasn’t balling, I am a single mother but you know how many extra checks you get out the year. Now I know you’re thinking girl you did all that for him and y’all wasn’t married. The thing was I treated him the way he treated me, that man has paid bills, gotten my car fixed, fixed my car, took me on beautiful dates, helped me with my kids, and the gifts. The man can pick some gifts he pays attention to details. He purchased me some diamond earrings for Valentine’s Day. One day Amber and I were at the nail shop and he called me and asked where I was. I told him where and he pulled up came in talked to the nail tech and told them to cut my nails down. For whatever reason he did not like me with long nails but he then he paid for them and left. It has been times where he would just call me and tell me to get ready don’t ask no questions just be ready. Of course I still was rushing cause hours before, in my book means late minute. But over time I would just already be dressed and ready, you don’t have to get ready if you stay ready. A few of my many lessons he taught me. You I gained so much weight with this man from me cooking and him taking us on dates, things he like to do. Another lesson I learned pay attention to a man’s likes and interest, I am almost sure that will help you navigate how y’all will spend your relationship. Little Daniell and I was like the best thing in the world. It gave me Joker and Harley Quinn vibes, that’s how in tune we were. People knew we was together and people knew we was coming together. Even if he say he ain’t coming and he knew I was coming he was pulling up. This man never kept his eyes off of me. When we would be in the club he would have his shades on and that man would be watching me. Will find me out of all the people in the club and I felt him looking at me and watching me and watching the people around me. I’m either going to dance while he’s watching me or I’m about to pop some shit with some hater. But it didn’t matter because his eyes was on me. The way he bragged about me was different. He would send pictures in the group chat the things I bought or when I would clean his house and make up his bed. He even told some friends that they could never pulled the type of woman he has because I’m in a different tax bracket. It was just so damn sexy how he handled me. Little Daniell was the first man I ever been with that could complete me 100%. I mean have you ever dated a man in Detroit who had no kids, his own car, his own place, and his own job, and could make shit happen when need be and had street cred and smart and responsible. That shit is so fucking rare and I treated him like he was.
Yeah I know so if it was so perfect then why are we here. Little Daniell had so many problems with me, he thought my kids were spoiled and he was very judgmental. He wasn’t patience with me and what I was trying to do. Like I said I ain’t have it like that but when I did I made up for it. There was a time when he wanted me to move from my apartments. I mean yes I was in the hood but I mean I can afford it and it was my place. He would send me houses and I would express to him that I won’t be able to cover that rent on my own and I didn’t want to set myself up for failure. He told that “I’m going to pay half of it.” Now me not knowing I paid no attention to what he was really saying. I told him no and I wasn’t ready yet, I wasn’t making enough money to manage a house. Now before we talked about me moving, he sent me a picture well a few pictures of different types of rings and shapes. I told him the ones I liked and the color I wanted, at that time I wanted a chocolate diamond and I wanted my diamond to be secured because I didn’t want to lose it. Now months after that we didn’t talk about it again. But I noticed he was being distant and weird towards me. One cold night at Amber house outside while he is working on the car I brought up being pregnant. Now there was no for sure answer I just knew I was a week late. I was stressing out because my relationship with little Daniell was rocky we was getting into it and everything, just bumping heads. One day I was talking to Amber and she was just like maybe y’all should just call it quits until he figure things out. At that time I didn’t know what that meant but I told her yeah I was going to fall back because I didn’t understand what was happening. So just when I fall back he start back calling me and stuff. I paid no mind thinking everything was going back to normal. I think maybe 2 weeks after that shit just hit the fan. One minute I was talking to him and we were going back and forward and he hung up the phone and then he blocked me. He blocked me of social media and when I told his brother and Amber to tell him call me and talk to me he wouldn’t do it. I even went on social media and wrote this long status about how he left me and I didn’t want nobody to ask me where he was and that we were done. During the first week of the breakup it was hard and of course all his friends was there for me came over to my house some days and I went to their house. They really wasn’t getting answers from him either and he was distant from them as well. Nobody really knew the pain I was going through. Yes everybody seen me sad and crying, I called off work 2 days in a row, I was depressed, I wasn’t eating, I really didn’t know what to do. I never cried over someone is hard in my life, the first month was the hardest because I found out I was 5 weeks pregnant. When I found out I was in a state of shock, I called Daniell and I got no answer I still was blocked. I was going to have Amber and big Daniel reach out to him but I felt like he would have thought I was playing or just trying to get him to speak to me. I had already put it in my mind that I was going to get an abortion because of the conversation he and I had I had the appointment set going into my 8 weeks. I cried almost nonstop and going into my 6 weeks I woke up to a bloody mess, it looked like it was from a crime scene. I threw my sheets away, took me a shower, and I went to urgent care.
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