I can't even clutch my hands to my face and cry. I can't mourn. I'm stuck in my head, an echo in this lifeless body. Is this what it's going to be like in Ever-life? No, I've never heard of it being like this. Do I want to go to our version of heaven or try my hand at the real thing? I've been good in my life...Never did anything truly terrible…I can't imagine I'd go to hell. Fuck, I never even considered it or took it seriously until now. It wasn't real until now.